BrokenIcez`

2009-07-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Before NS...

Ermm.. i am going NS tmr liao.. so i shall update my blog before i go in..

11 July 2009

Today went out with bibi to window shop at plaza sing.. when reach there.. den found out tt got nth much to shop de leh.. so abit sian diao.. lols.. but it was nt tt bad.. cos end up we went to arcade instead.. played the silent hill and play till both our hands wanna break le lo.. lols.. after tt went to play the basketball machine.. bibi wanna target 1000 points.. so we tried veri hard to achieve.. but nt easy sia.. onli gt ard 600 plus 700 like tt nia.. haiz.. nvm.. bibi nxt time we go try again.. hahas.. we also played photo hunt.. and found tt.. we both quite lan sia.. lols.. nvm la.. nxt time den play again.. kekex.. had quite a great fun with bibi at the arcade.. lols..

After tt.. we went to Marina Square there again.. 4th time goin there sia.. we both like love goin there sia.. lols.. we went to makan at thai express.. the coconut ice cream and fried banana nice sia.. but too bad tt time we too full liao.. lols..

After tt, we met up with vin, yong, clem, wendy and lester at Jurong Safra to sing K.. hehex.. sang till 10.30pm like tt.. abit sad cos canot sing all the way till 3am.. wanna extend also no slot.. haiz.. so didnt manage to sing much duet with bibi.. but nt bad.. all of us had quite some fun there.. managed to sing my Feng.. hahas.. =x

After tt went to JP to catch a midnight movie.. initally bibi can join de.. but last min she need to go back.. but its okie la.. i dun blame u bibi.. anyway.. the Ice Age 3 quite nice sia.. super funny.. i kinda like it.. hahas.. after tt went to Eat supper den went yong hse to ton.. lols..

12 July 2009..

After ton at yong's hse, i went to find bibi again.. bibi made mi a cake.. its nicely decorated.. though i expected a cake.. but ur effort is appreciated.. i love it.. the cake is nice and the decoration is nice.. thanks bibi =).. after tt.. bibi came my hse.. and i gave her tt something which i made.. hope u like it bibi..

Okie.. i think tt's bout it ba.. i am enlisting into tekong tml le.. shall see all of u in 2 weeks time.. take care everyone =))...

This part is for my bibi..

bibi.. whenever u miss mi.. jus look at the video i made.. even if u cant see mi.. u can at least hear my voice and see my pictures.. i will take care of myself inside there de.. and i will call u everyday de.. Remember our promise.. 2 yrs time will be the day.. i love you!!

xIcez

hAnMing~!

2009-07-06T19:56:00.005+08:00

Keep no time.. so let mi update nw ba.. hahas..

4 July 2009

Went to toa payoh with bibi to collect my specs for NS use de.. wah.. the degree is realli so high sia.. even when i wear nw.. it makes mi dizzy sia >.<".. ermm.. after take specs, we went to makan.. lols.. after tt, we went walking ard toa payoh, lookin for a cheap handphone!! hahas.. Budget ma.. den NS also dun need so gOod de.. so finally.. found 1.. hahas.. after buy everything, finally... we make our way to marina.. hahas..

THe weather is realli O my tian de hot.. hahas.. after reaching marina, we went walking ard explore explore lor.. nt bad leh.. the scenery is quite nice.. den we went into the gallery place.. both of us were like.. WOOO!!! shiok.. hahas... cos the place is air-conditioned.. considering the super O my tian de hot de weather.. its realli shiok to be in the gallery room lor.. hahas.. went walking ard.. see see and take photos in the gallery.. hahas.. After tt den went outside walk walk see see away.. the sun so hot until my eyes become 1 line liao lor.. lols.. after tt.. we went to the water playground there take photos also.. too bad i wearing shoes lor.. if wear slippers i sure join bibi in the water de.. looks fun man.. even got kids wear swimming costume go lor.. lols.. After tt, i bought a water willy for bibi.. lols.. looks cute rite?? kekex..

After tt, we went to eat ice cream.. and its realli LOL lor.. we walk all the way juz to throw tt cup of the ice cream la.. =.="".. nvm.. after tt we went marina walk walk.. on the way bibi treat mi eat the ice cream at city link.. high class ice cream sia.. nt bad la.. lols.. after tt went to ripcurl and bought a cap for bibi and myself.. someday we will wear it tgt.. hahas.. bibi looks goOd with tt cap.. i like it.. nt becos ur eyes are covered hor!! is realli nice.. hahas.. After tt went long john makan.. den went to the fountain of wealth... tt's where the real show begins!! hahas...

Shall nt sae anything bout wad we did.. cos its a secret between mi n bibi.. hahas.. XPPP... Was quite happy tt my surprise works.. but too bad bibi nv touched till cry.. haiz.. but anyway.. it was a happy day for mi.. hope it is for u too bibi.. =))

After that, juz send bibi home den go back rest liao.. hahas.. it was a long and fun day =)) bibi remember our 约定arh.. hahas.. i will be lookin forward to tt day.. love ya =))

Ermm.. think i shall end here le ba..

xIcez
hAnMing~!

2009-06-29T00:32:00.004+08:00

Hey yoz.. long time nv blog as usual =X.. hehex.. so let mi update abit today ba..

25 June 2009

Bibi came my hse today morning.. den juz slack ard lor.. cos goin to nite cycling tonight.. hehex.. today was the first time we cook spagetti tgt.. hehex.. bibi chef sia.. dun play play hor.. end up nt enuff spagetti so we used maggi mee instead!! LOLS.. but overall taste was not bad.. realli.. kekex..

After tt.. met up with ilham at JE MRT.. den when reach Bedok bus interchange, met up with Sotong.. Sian lo.. we came too late.. so no choice.. have to rent bike from another shop.. tt shop simply sux.. is like the bike rental price is more ex.. nt onli tt, they didnt even intend to give us the lights lor.. so wtf la.. nite cycling without lights?? go knock wall la.. lucky i ask la.. tmd.. somemore when they give us the light, they like so bu shuang la.. sae wad.. dun lose the light hor if nt $7.. attitude suck to the core man.. PUI!! If ever i am gonna go nite cycling again.. i am gonna reach there b4 9m to rent frm another shop la.. Kk.. shall relax abit.. if nt bibi sae mi agitated again.. hahas...

Ermm.. met up with wendy clem and blood ltr on.. u noe how tough it is to actually bring the bike from ECP to the coffee shop at marina and back to ECP??!! hahas.. anyway.. when we all met up, we went on our journey.. kekex.. the ppl who came were mi, bibi, my bro, ai di, clem, wendy, sotong, blood and ilham.. our goal is to reach macRitchie reservoir.. and i am suppose to lead.. so.. guess wad?? we didnt even reach Suntec.. LOLS.. its nt my fault hor.. its due to some accident.. den clem gt injuried.. so no choice.. its kinda disappointing.. but nvm.. nxt time when lester, vin and yong is going den we go MacRitchie lo.. kekex.. Anyway.. since we didnt manage to conti our journey, we travelled back to ECP rest lor.. den we went to bedok jetty there sit sit.. den chat chat there.. some fall aslp.. wendy and clem went back early cos clem is injuried.. so left the 7 of us resting there.. as all of them were flat, mi and bibi went to take photos of the sun rise.. the both of us were like the most energetic ones la.. kekex.. the rest W-E-A-K la.. bleahx!!

After tt, we all return bike and went back by bus.. and like i sae.. the rest W-E-A-K la.. so all went flat on bus except mi and bibi.. xP.. we chatted all the way back.. den i sent bibi to the bus stop den i went back.. FLAT >.<" hahas..

26 June 2009

After i FLAT enuff.. i woke up at ard 10pm like tt.. den ilham came my hse ton.. lols.. aizai rite?? kekex.. but my bibi more aizai lor.. go chalet right after nite cycling sia.. power.. anyway.. after ilham came.. we dotA all the way.. and we kinda lost all the way la.. tmd.. damn emo =(.. but nvm.. at least ending we still manage to win 1 or 2 rd.. lols.. after tt, had some chat with ilham den....

27 June 2009

as continued.. i met up with the vin, yong, lester and vin' s 2 fren at bukit batok shelter court for bball.. lols.. ytd nv slp den str8 go bball sia.. zai rite?? kekex.. after bball.. initially intend to go watch transformer with bibi.. but.. becos i too tirEd le.. and somemore, i injuried my thigh during the bball.. so nv go.. rest at home instead.. sian lo.. my thigh super pain la.. now also canot walk well la.. realli lame liao.. lols..

28 June 2009

Went out with bibi today.. finally can go k box with bibi again.. we went Orchard Cineleisure for Kbox.. went frm 2 to 7pm.. quite fun singing with bibi.. but after sing for so long.. the both of us kinda got tirEd.. lols.. after singing.. went shopping with bibi at Far East.. den bibi bought a shirt.. is quite nice and quite suit her.. hehex.. my taste nt bad hor?? =P ..

after tt.. went for dinner at Waruku de pasta.. the food there nt bad.. quite nice.. after makan.. finally went home.. hehex.. had a realli goOd time with bibi.. my bibi is super high de lor.. kekex.. the time with bibi kinda pass super fast sia.. so fast need go home le.. haiz.. and bibi sch reopening tml le.. super sian.. nw can onli go out with her during weekends le.. nvm.. we will still be so loving de rite bibi?? hahas..

THink i shall end here ba.. shall update more nxt time.. anyway all the photos can be found in my facebook.. =))

xIcez
hAnMing~!

2009-06-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

~First Date~

hehex.. bibi's exams is finally over.. so.... today is officially my first day with bibi.. After tonning at yong's hse till 3pm like tt.. i finally went home change and met up with bibi..

We went to Vivo to watch the horror movie "Drag Me To Hell".. this show tmd lo.. is super scary la.. the sound effects like super loud.. this song abit like "The Ring".. Thru-out the show, i think i have my palms on my face sia =X.. cos its realli scary.. its like freaking mi out la.. lucky i dun haf a weak heart.. ermm.. maybe i too long nv watch horror in cinema le ba.. lols.. and bibi!! i noe u saw it.. u saw everything rite?? =(.. malu liao.. haiz.. Anyway i realise bibi quite li hai.. cos throughout the movie, she like nt scare sia.. eyes open big big and watch de.. li hai lo.. i sit beside u.. machiam like u r the bf and i am the gf la.. lols.. u need to protect mi =X..

After movie den we went to harbour front there sit sit.. its like the open area near the sea.. alot of couples sia.. den we at there chat chat and took some photos.. too bad its too dark.. if nt will haf alot of photos le lo.. and also due to the fact tt its quite late.. so no choice.. canot stay long.. BIBI.. nxt time lets sit there longer.. its like veri romantic sia.. hahas..

After dinner den send bibi home le.. on the way i kinda scared sia.. i keep thinking bout the scenes in tt horror movie =.=".. think i am nt gonna slp well tonight le.. haiz..

Anyway, today many first time wor.. cos today first time i saw bibi wear skirt.. sweet sweet nice nice!! hehex.. Today is also the first time mi n bibi went on a date officially becos previously she having CT... den today also the first time mi n bibi went to watch movie.. horror movie somemore.. hahas..

Okie.. i think i shall end here le.. i look forward to our nxt date bibi.. loves ya lots!! =))

xIcez
hAnMing~!

2009-06-12T04:29:00.002+08:00

~Updates~

LOLS.. long time no blog liao sia.. machiam like dead blog liao sia.. nvm.. lets do some updates...

30 May 2009

Had a bball session with vin, yong, clem and wz ytd.. it was also ytd tt i noe wendy and clem!! lols.. congrats sia.. kekex.. =) Today initially plan to go bugis shop for vin de cap de.. but end up didnt.. cos all lazy.. lols.. even yong who's the initial mastermind also slp till late lor.. so end up, they come my hse instead.. hahas..

Initial plan was to dotA.. but ended up, we play RC instead.. becos of them, i started RC sia.. lols.. AFK game la!! lols.. ermm.. play play play den we went Lan to play L4D at bukit batok CSC.. quite sometime didnt go le.. ermm.. den also realise gt a new map sia.. tried the new map.. but.. tio owned.. lols.. imba map la.. 1st stage also cant clear sia =.=".. dunno is becos too long nv play or becos of the burden.. kuku yong!! =P

After tt went back my hse and conti tonning.. lols.. got mi, vin, wz and yong.. dotA till morning.. nt bad.. quite fun.. kekex.. nv slp a bit la.. super tiRed sia.. den afternoon still need go find bibi.. lols.. shag lor.. After breadfast we went back my hse.. actually wanna slp awhile de.. but end up didnt.. we chat abit den end up chat more and more sia.. all the secrets come out sia.. lols.. noe quite alot of things.. gotten some updates too and also update them too..

Afternoon went to meet bibi.. lols.. too long nv update.. i forgot wad i mean bibi for liao sia.. =X (BIBI DUN BLAME MI!! Sorry!! =x)

5 June 2009

Today is my last day of work.. finally dun need work le.. its not becos the work is not good.. actually thanks dr choy for intro-ing mi this job =).. its juz tt xiao hei keep bully mi.. plus i goin NS soon.. i wanna spend more time with bibi.. tt's y dun wan work le.. wanna enjoy =P..

Ermm.. after work, met up with bibi den go meet up the rest to go for wendy de bdae celebration.. got mi, bibi, vin, wz, lester, yong and clement.. Wendy machiam book the whole ktv at bukit batok csc sia.. lols.. had quite alot of fun with them.. hahas.. After cake cutting, wendy allow us to have a room.. den end up we sing k till ard 2am sia.. hahas.. quite fun la..

After everything, we went home.. its very late le.. therefore, bibi came to ton at my hse.. felt so bad tt i didnt let vin they all to ton at my hse.. sorry =( .. bibi fell sick after the k.. dunno is it becos she didnt slp or wad.. but in anyway.. u made mi worry.. After she changed, i gave her some panadol den coax her to slp le.. I had to slp in the living room but due to mi being so tiRed le.. i slp in no time.. hahas.. Anyway, happy birthday wendy!! =)

Photos can be found at my facebook ^^

8 June 2009

Today met up with lester and yong at jp after sending bibi home.. initally wanna go bbdc with yong de.. but end up nv.. anyway, we met up early to prepare the bdae surprise for vin tonight.. kekex..

At nite, met up with vin, chrispin, wz, clem and wendy at the newly opened safra jurong kbox.. first time sing k for so long sia.. too bad bibi cant join.. if nt u will sing till high.. hahas.. i first time sing k for 8 hrs sia.. 7pm to 3am.. sing till my voice gone sia =.=".. '

During the k session, we had this surprise bdae bash for vin!! advanced happy bdae my bro!! hope u like the hair "wig" from us.. it will come in handy when u book out and wanna go out walk walk.. hahas =x.. anyway, if u wanna dye it black, den use it!! kekex.. beside the "wig", we also give u hanger lor.. let u hang ur underwear during NS.. hahas.. ermm.. yong also had personal present for vin. hahas.. believe u can use for years.. hahass.. remember wad yong sae?? bigger each yr hor.. get ready.. lols..

Anyway, got the actual present which is a bag for this bro of mine.. kekex.. after the k session, we went to the nearby kopitiam to eat supper and waited super long for the food la.. stupid sia.. after eating, chit chat till morning den took the first train home.. it was fun.. but super tiRed sia =.="..

Videos and photos can be found in my facebook!!

10 June 2009

Erm... bibi came my hse to study for her last paper.. did my best to help her.. hopes she will do well in this last paper so we can enjoy our holiday!! hahas.. ermm.. after tt, i went to meet up with vin and yong at JP to shop for sth to signify our friendship.. our brotherhood..

Shop quite long for it.. met with some obstacles and wanna giv up but ended up, found an alternative and managed to made it.. hahas.. At nite, met up with bibi and wz to dine at New York New York.. didnt realli like the food =x.. hahas..

Most of us are goin NS soon.. NS is a process where guys become more matured.. some may haf drastic change after NS.. seriously, none of us noe wad will happen to us after NS.. Neither do i.. Its been 7-8 years since we know each other.. this friendship came becos of fate.. but lasted becos of our efforts.. I do not wish to see our friendship go down the drain after NS.. And somemore, yong goin overseas soon.. it will be 7 yrs.. tt's bout hw long we noe each other.. therefore, i hope this sth that is made specially for our 6 brothers, will at least giv bond us together.. even though we may nt see each other often especially for yong.. i still hope tt.. by the sight of this sth.. we can still at least remember each other..

Our friendship shall last forever..

11 June 2009

Bibi had her last paper today.. heard she did quite well.. happy for her.. hahas.. we can finally enjoy our holiday!! kekex.. erm.. at nite met up with clem and yong to collect tt sth.. after tt send bibi home den met with with vin, wz, yong and clem.. had some chat and took some photos at the S11 near vin's hse.. tml vin will be goin NS le.. 1 month ltr will be my turn.. in any case, vin... i wish u all the best in NS.. do take care of urself.. i will be lookin forward to seeing u 2 weeks ltr after u book out.. hope u will still be the same.. anythin u can find us bro.. take care in there..

After tt, i went yong hse ton.. and here i am bloggin in the middle of the nite and not slping.. lols.. tml i will be goin to watch movie with bibi.. so i think i shall be resting soon le ba.. hahas.. anyway, i will try to update more!! =)

Photos can be found in facebook!!

xIcez
hAnMing~

2009-05-19T11:00:00.002+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES

Opps.. keep forgetting to update.. hahas.. kk.. let mi update bit by bit of wad i remembered ba =x..

ermm.. shit.. where shld i start sia.. lols..

17 May 2009

Erm.. went to pray my grandma in the morning.. this is the 49th of her death le.. haiz.. well.. i still miss her ='( .. ermm.. money is always the problem.. no money den even brothers also can quarrel.. so.. haiz..

Anyway, after reached home, i met up with her.. And we went to KBOX!! hahas.. Initially wanna go CCK de.. but no more le.. so went clementi one instead.. And i realised tt.. her voice quite nice sia.. kinda like her singing.. hahas.. den when sing tgt.. i felt so inferior sia.. like noob singing with pro like tt =(.. hahas.. After tt send her home den went bball.. bball was nt bad.. quite a number of us turn up.. Its quite fun also =).. Erm... I owe u one.. wait till june holiday!! we shall go out more.. hahas.. anyway.. today is our first day also.. hahas.. so happy happy!!XD

18 May 2009

Erm.. nth much happened today.. juz tt.. abit screwed up at work.. when go to work.. found out tt things required are nt there.. so... veri sian.. haiz.. dunno why.. i am kinda stressed up becos of work sia.. sian la.. tt stupid xiao hei!! haiz.. ermm.. nvm.. 2 more weeks!! i will be off le!! hahas..

Anyway now PP comin le.. hope we can successfully get it done!! Alot of efforts hav been put in lor.. although i still noob.. but i will still do my veri best during the performance de!! hahas.. Who haven buy tickets from mi!! faster come buy!! come support us!! 24 may!! hahas..

Oh ya.. comin up nxt will be the chalet too.. hahas.. hope it will be fun! and after my work officially ended.. i am so gonna go out enjoy lo.. join mi bros!! hahas..

ermm.. i am like so random sia.. nvm.. think i shall end here ba.. lessons are still running as i am typin sia.. lols.. and tt XIAO HEI!!! >.<"

xIcez
hAnMing~!

2009-04-14T01:04:00.001+08:00

Updates

Hello...

Quite some time nv update le.. But for the past weeks.. many things happen.. but i also dun wish to mention it anymore.. So lets start afresh ba.. anyway.. had a PP precamp from fri 10 to 12 April.. Coming up next is Dance de PP le..

Anyway.. quite some time nv see vin they all le.. so hope all of you can turn up on the nite cycling trip on 24 April..

xIcez
hAnMing~

2009-03-15T00:45:00.005+08:00

Hello!
Update abit here.. hahas..

Friday the 13th!!

Mi, vin, clem, yong, chrispin, lester and wen zhong went K box to sing sing.. lols.. abit dun feel like goin at first de.. but in the end still went.. cos vin arrange so long liao.. canot dun go.. hahas.. but ok la.. didnt regret goin.. its quite fun at there.. Sing and scream like ah gua like tt sia.. especially vin.. lols.. Ermm.. ya.. if gt chance.. den we shall go again.. Ermm.. i went off early cos need go hospital.. but end up nv go.. cos i am late by a few minutes.. haiz.. anyway.. received a call from recuit express regarding the previous job.. this realli made my head big sia.. cos i dun realli like the job!! argh!! but in the end.. ermm.. lols..

hahas.. nxt on the list is.... ZOO!! lols.. kuku yong de zoo trip.. the thought of it realli make mi LOL la.. Out of so many place, he wanna go zoo.. hahas.. but nvm la.. its gonna be fun i guess.. kekex.. nxt nxt will be night cycling.. hehex.. i will arrange tt after the zoo trip.. hahas..

Saturday, 14th March 2009

Dunno why.. recently i am like so so tired.. maybe dotA all nite with andy tt caused this lor.. haiz.. shld realli reduce all these liao.. i seriously need my slp.. i think during these 4 days of work.. i am realli gonna slp before 12am.. so wan dotA? play before tt.. hahas.. Ermm.. ya.. becos i am so tired due to the dotA ytd Nite, i woke up late!! argh..

Today got an unexpected date with her.. supposed to meet at 10am.. i woke up at 10.15am la.. and i onli woke up when she called mi sia.. so ma lu la >.<".. Initially tot she will be angry sia.. but heng.. she is not.. hahas.. We went East Coast park.. And thanks to her intelligence.. we walked 2 bus stop distance of road for nth.. and wad is most zai is tt.. she sae.. walk a longer distance is for a better tml and i still need to thank her for tt sia =.=".. ppl is rest more to walk longer distance la.. lols.. Ermm.. initially i also dunno y she ask mi go out sia.. i tot she wanna have some talk cos she sounds rather emo.. lols.. but i am wrong.. when we reached there, she suggested cycling on a double bike.. so we cycle and chat on the way.. hahas.. AND ended up we both got sun burn >.<".. but still.. it was a fun day out with her.. and I realised my mouth never stop talkin for this entire day with her la.. haiz.. time to rest my mouth.. hahas..

Overall it was a fun day! hahas.. ermm.. i think i shall end here.. kekex.. now is realli hope for the job approval at biopolis there.. den i can work in the lab le!! hahas *pray*...

Am i like falling back for her? What shld i do?

xIcez
hAnMing~

2009-03-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

NIGHT CYCLING~!

Hello..

Ytd night went for night cycling with my CO mates at east coast park to Changi.. Got Andy, Wendy, Violet, Yi Jie, Jac and many more.. totally gt 15 ppl.. Ermm.. I never go night cycling before sia.. my first time.. so i was looking forward to it.. hahas.. Reached there at 830pm but waited for others till 11pm before we depart.. the waiting time is super duper long until i wanna slp lor.. lols.. but meanwhile gt hear some horror story by andy.. hahas..

I partner with Wendy cos she no stamina.. hahas.. Throughout the journey.. many ppl gt injured sia.. Yong huang even ended up having plasters on his legs sia.. and i kinda hit andy on his stomach with the bike accidentally.. lucky he gt enuff fats.. if nt i guilty liao.. hahas.. ermm.. I never went night cycling b4.. so i dunno.. but heard frm the rest.. it seems tt this time de night cycling is the one with most number of injured de liao.. so ermm...

Overall, it was realli fun.. hahas.. but too bad we didnt get the chance to go OCH.. seriously, i am scared to go.. but i realli feel like goin leh.. hahas.. anyone wanna go wif mi?? As a grp i mean.. lols.. Anyway.. i find tt i can realli clinque with andy and violet sia.. lols.. violet muz beware liao.. i am gonna snatch ur bf.. wakakaka!! =P

Ermm.. at the end, was realli tired la.. This is the first time tt i feel like goin home so badly lor.. lols.. so after waiting for bus with wendy, i chiong home liao.. actually.. i am tired also becos the nite before, wendy came my hse to hav a chat wif mi.. den WZ came my hse also to dotA.. so didnt slp until 5am.. den 6 plus woke up to prepare for the Young Scientist Symposium thingy.. though i didnt win =(.. Den end up reach home at 5pm.. dotA 1 rd.. den slp till 730pm den go nite cycling str8 away lor.. so xiong rite?? hahas..

Ermm.. i think i shld end here ba.. too bad i dun haf the night cycling photos.. so i cant upload.. if wan see.. go my facebook see.. hahas.. anyway vin, i am nt emo liao.. after talkin to u juz nw.. i think i dun intend to do anything bah.. ya.. maybe i oversensitive.. hahas..

xIcez
hAnMing~

2009-03-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

UPDATES~!

hello..

Its been quite long since i last updated.. cos realli veri busy.. have projects to clear and exams to revise for.. so realli cant fork out any time to blog.. look at my tagbox, can imagine hw dead my blog is le ba.. lols.. paiseh la.. always make my blog dead..

Now holiday le.. all the tough things are over.. no more exams for mi for at least 2 years ba.. cos i am goin NS.. lols.. den now.. i realli have many many things tt i wanna do.. i written all down in a notebook le and I SHALL START DOING THEM!!

Firstly and most importantly, i have to settle all the scholarship applications thingy.. haiz.. this thing have been giving mi headache sia.. but i will settle it! Next, i wanna find a job!!
NO JOB = NO MONEY = NO OUTING = NO FUN!!

After finding job, i intend to start training up for my bball and train for NS liao.. wanna be more fit.. hahas.. tt time vin sae i play bball until veri lousy.. seriously, tt offended and hurt mi even till now.. but nvm.. think back.. he is right la.. i kinda sucks from the start.. i can nv be as good as the rest.. and wad is amazing is tt.. i still dare to look down on others sia.. haiz.. sorry ilham =(.. but nvm.. i shall train hard hard hard now! learn to play without specs.. hahas..

Next, i also wanna train hard for CO.. especially the song Tai Yang lor.. Since now i got the chance to play timpani le.. and its nt easy to mi.. so its kinda a challenge to mi.. so, i am gonna work hard to perform well!! hahas.. ermm.. i also wanna work hard to help out the PP committee.. hahas..

Erm... throughout the last sem.. many things had happen sia.. So many frens come and go.. haiz.. i think this last sem the most xiong sem and the most happening one too =.=".. Normally, i feel tt is okie.. cos no matter hw tough my life may be.. i still gt my brothers.. hahas.. but now.. maybe not ba.. sometimes we haf to realli depend on ourselves de.. brothers are the same as frens.. they are not related to u by blood anyway.. So they will nt be there forever de.. we can lose them anytime.. well.. we still haf to depend on ourselves de.. Nth is more reliable than ourselves.. hahas.. but still.. be gladful tt i HAD a grp of brothers.. hahas..

Ermm.. also dunno wad i tokin bout liao.. think i shall end here.. cya =)

xIcez
hAnMing~!

2009-01-11T17:53:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Yong~!

Hello..

10 Jan 2009

We celebrated yong's bdae at Nazz's hse.. actually we already planned for this 1 week ago liao.. but this week, i realli veri veri busy arh.. haiz.. everyday like reach home 12am like tt.. super duper tiRed lor.. den still.. so many projects due liao.. gg sia.. but despite the busy-ness, i will nv forget the gOod buddy of mine de bdae de.. hahas..

Last year yong complain we nv put effort in celebrating his bdae.. So.. this year wad we did?? ermm.. we had a party at Nazz's hse.. hahas.. Initially i still tot veri little ppl go lor.. but end up.. alot of them turn up sia.. hahas.. Got mi, Chrispin, jess, vin, clem, yong, ai di, my bro, nazz, bloody, Sotong, David and Shi bao.. ermm.. dunno if i got miss out anyone.. but quite alot turn up sia.. quite happy.. hahas..

Ermm.. Nazz prepare the food for the whole party.. his food nt bad de lor.. but juz too spicy for mi.. but tt's becos i cant take spicy food.. hahas.. den after dinner, we went to play water bomb.. hahas.. i kena 3 bombs lor.. haiz.. but its fun.. hehex.. after the water bomb, actually we wanna go play carpark catching de.. but due to the lack of time, we didnt manage to.. den we went back to cut cake.. after tt.. we went downstairs play some card games.. hahas.. veri fun.. but its realli a pity tt we didnt get to play carpark catching..

hmm... actually, this is the last year we will be celebrating bdae wif Yong le.. Cos.. this year, he will be goin overseas to study le.. 6 years.. haiz.. we r gonna miss u.. anyway.. overall is a nice day hanging out together.. hope to have more of this kinda outing.. Hope this party didnt disappoint anyone of u who turned up =)..

11 Jan 2009

We ton at Nazz's hse.. den all shag lor.. hahas.. But for mi.. i more shag lor.. haiz.. becos, after this party, i hav to go home bathe den go out again to sch for project discussion!! haiz.. life is never Easy.. sobx sobx.. Despite the fact tt i bought a redbull to make myself more alert, i still fall aslp while discussing.. hahas.. but nt bad la.. the discussion still nt bad.. though i am super shag, we still manage to get the things needed done.. hahas.. Ermm.. All the project datelines are ending soon.. its gonna be tough.. but after this, it will be over soon.. i will be graduating soon.. hahas..

Ermm.. den juz nw, i went to play bball wif my bro and ai di downstair.. haiz.. den met a grp of AH BENGs.. haiz.. they play super rough lor =.=".. Guess wad.. When i do layup, 3 of them come cover mi lor.. den one asshole smack my specs la.. haiz.. den end up.. my specs broke.. the lens even cut my face la.. juz a bit more kena my eyes le lor.. haiz.. at tt moment i super hot la.. feel like whacking them la.. Knn~!! but still.. i maintain my cool.. i upgrade le.. hehex.. but its realli super pain la.. haiz.. disfigured liao.. SOBBIEXX ='(.. i guess i can go be monk liao ='(.. haiz..
*I SWEAR I AM NEVER GONNA WEAR SPECTACLES TO PLAY BASKETBALL LIAO!!! NEVER EVER!!

Haiz.. nvm.. anyway.. today is yong's offical bdae.. SO..
HAPPY BDAE YONG!!

Guess i shall end here.. cya.. alot of projects to chiong liao.. ARGH!!

xIcez
hAnMing~

2008-12-31T16:31:00.008+08:00

Bye 2008 and Hello 2009~!!

Hello. .
These few days quite busy.. so didnt manage to blog. .
So lets update abit. .

26 Dec 2008

We had a class BBQ at Dr Koh's hse.. hahas.. His hse is big de lor.. Looks so much like a chalet la.. Den the people who went were Carinna, Lijun, aldred, mi, xiangling, Dr Koh, Dr Tan, CaiLe, JinDa, Waileong, Kenneth and Yong Hui.. Initally more ppl de.. but last min many cant make it.. so left these few of us.. but nt bad la.. alot liao. . We play games, eat and chat.. is kinda fun.. hahas.. After tt, Dr lau and his 2 FYP students joined us to help clear the remaining food =x.. hahas..

Since pictures speak a thousand words, here are some photos that we took:

Den after the BBQ, i went directly to sch.. for my NPCO anniversary camp. . hahas.. This time de camp veri nice lor.. At the Staff Hostel.. hahas.. so cool la.. Machiam like Chalet lor.. woo.. i simply juz love it.. wakakaka.. But i reached there at ard 12am liao.. so went there took a bathe.. den orh orh liao.. hahas.. So in the end, i shared a room with Jing Xiu, my good fren in NPCO.. hahas.. He is realli a gOod guy.. hehex..

27 Dec 2008

The camp continues.. hahas.. Woke up in the morning liao lor.. 8am like tt.. Went for a walk with JingXiu den after tt.. afternoon like tt went to hortpark for our activity.. Is quite fun.. but tiring also.. the sun so hot.. xiong lor.. Hortpark is quite nice.. a gOod place for strollin i think.. provided there is no hot sun.. lols..

Den at nite, we gt buffet.. den super lot of alumni came sia.. alot i dunno de.. hahas.. Den gt games.. Den my qns is "What comes to your mind when u hear TOILETBOWL".. hahas.. den hav to show funny actions lor.. hahas.. Quite fun to see ppl showing funny actions.. but the organiser idiot la.. gt one qns.. they sae "what comes to your mind when u hear HANMING" =.=".. machiam shoot mi lor.. hahas.. but overall was fun..

At midnight, we went to play murderer.. not those card games.. there gt a crime scene.. den we hav to solve it.. In the end, we manage to nab the correct criminal.. but we dun haf sufficient reasons to support.. lols.. cos we think too complicated.. lols.. but still.. is fun i would sae..

After tt, we all still nv slp lor.. got mi, jingXiu, Wendy, Chrispin, JianKai, Yijie, KoonKit, KK's fren, Adruey, Amanda, yong huang and shao xuan. We played games like polar bear and murderer till morning.. hahas.. veri funny lor.. lots of laughter.. =)

28 Dec 2008

Becos of the fun ytd, we all tired until dunno like wad liao.. hahas.. Wendy most zai liao.. slp till 3pm.. hahas.. Quite disappointing.. cos today last day le.. haiz.. fun always dun last long.. sobbiex.. This is the first NPCO camp which i felt warmth.. hahas.. realli fun.. i love it!

Ermm.. this is supposed to be the last day of camp le.. but the committee hav to stay one more day.. den wendy wan mi acc her cos she dun dare slp alone.. so here i am!! One additional day of camp.. hahas.. mi, yijie, andy, Koon Kit, KK's fren and JianLong played dota and some minigames.. wakakaka.. Quite fun la.. den at nite had some chat with Wendy before i tok till fall aslp.. hahas..

29 Dec 2008

Today realli time to break camp liao.. hahas.. after break camp.. went home put my things.. den went to JP to meet my mum, bro and sis liao.. We went around to shop for New year clothes.. quite sad lor.. tt time i saw the button shirt at samuel and kelvin with Vin they all de.. i realli like lor.. still tot of buying it de.. but nv buy.. den today went back to see.. NO MORE LIAO!! AHH!! veri sad lor.. haiz.. but nvm.. in the end still bought some clothes.. Now, i still left 1 jeans haven buy.. maybe nxt week ba.. hahas..

31 Dec 2008

Today is the last day of year 2008 liao.. Thinking back.. quite alot of things happened to mi ba.. but compared to last year.. is still much more peaceful le.. Ermm.. this year 2008, i made mistakes which lead mi to regrets.. But also becos of this, i learnt some precious lessons (I hope i did).. I also gained new frens.. Also lost some frens too.. many things happened.. but 1 thing tt doesnt change is tt.. our brothers, vin, mi, yong, clem, wz will still be as close as ever.. includin jess too.. hahas.. tt's something i am veri happy about..

So this year.. my new year resolution is firstly, to work harder.. even harder than before in my studies.. Secondly, i wanna find a gf!! hahas.. i wan to hav someone to love mi and let mi dote on too.. hahas.. but of cos, i am nt goin to rush this.. cos i wanna make my nxt the last.. hahas.. Thirdly, i dun wanna depend on my mum for money le.. After i guaduate, i will work liao.. NS also gt money liao.. so i wun be poor liao!! hahas.. i will hav money to go out le.. wakakakaka..

I got one last wish.. seems quite impossible.. but still, is my wish.. i wish to own one SUBARU WRX.. Impreza also nt bad!! hahas.. tt's my affordable dream car =)..

Okie.. i think i shall end here.. Happy New year everyone.. Bye 2008.. and welcome 2009!! May this new year 2009 be a better and more enjoyable year for mi and all of us!!

There is only one life.. SO, ENJOY IT TO THE FULLEST!!

xIcez
hAnMing~

2008-12-26T13:04:00.002+08:00

Lesson Learnt~!

Hey..

Quite some time nv update.. better update nw.. if nt Vin come make noise again. . hahas..

Ermm.. Went out with vin, his bro, clem, jess and wz to shop for new clothes during Christmas eve.. Actually i also feel like buying de.. but becos, i goin with my sis to buy on monday le.. so didnt buy with them.. Ermm.. after tt went home eat dinner.. hahas..

After tt, we meet up.. den went to play pool.. hahas.. onli gt mi, jess, clem and vin.. but wz joined us after tt.. We tonned at the exact same place as wad we did for last christmas eve.. But one difference is tt.. this year was more peaceful for most of us.. unlike last year.. so no more crying, no sorrow for this year.. onli happiness.. and pokeR!! hahas..

Anyway.. i made a big mistake recently.. ya.. i shld grow up.. i shld be more matured le.. i muz think of consequences before i do things.. i realli feel regretful.. seriously.. haiz..

Hopefully, this big mistake of mine has come to an end.. I have tried my best to pay wadever responsibility i can le.. and i lost someone very very impt.. it hurts.. i dun wish to do this.. but wad choice do i still have?? haiz.. this is a lesson learnt.. a big one indeed.. Wad else can i still sae except.. sorry..

heartbroken~

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-12-17T10:49:00.004+08:00

Updates~!

Ermm.. quite some time nv update liao.. So i will just briefly run through wad has been goin on these few days.. hahas..

Actually also nth much.. these few days have to chiong my FYP stuffs and preparing for my Common Test.. haiz.. realli alot of things to do lor.. After CT, gt 3 weeks break.. but i gt super lots of projects to do la.. wtf.. break machiam like no break lor.. realli hell sia.. haiz..

But look on the bright side, at least i am graduating =) ..

Ermm.. actually i also gt some problems.. so quite fan like tt.. kinda dunno wad i should do.. i am rather confused i would sae.. at some point, it seems tt i hav to make a choice.. at another point, it seems tt i hav no other choices.. so i also dunno whether i shld go think bout it.. i am also quite confused whether to use logic to think, or let things happen naturally without even controlling it.. Aiyo.. overall.. i am confused jiu diu le..

Ermm.. anyway.. recently.. fall in love in this song "Next to you" which is posted on my blog.. This was introduced by chrispin.. hahas.. but like wad she sae.. this song somehow reflects on wad i am goin thru right nw..

kk.. end up ba.. Update next time.. oh ya.. vin.. i am looking forward to ur gathering =)

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-12-02T04:45:00.002+08:00

Some Feelings..!

hey...

Actually also dunno wad to update de.. but juz nw went to vin's blog.. den read read read.. i even went back to his 2007 dec post.. After reading, it realli bring mi back alot of memories.. Time realli flies.. everything was like juz happened ytd.. 2007 was like so pain.. so much sorrows.. so much sadness.. but it was also tt.. tt made us together, even stronger.. but 24 Dec 2008 will be different.. No more pain.. no more sorrow.. only laughter and happiness..

After reading, i have alot of feelings nw.. but i realli dunno hw to express out.. or rather, there seems no need for mi to express out anymore.. the past is the past.. wad is impt is the lesson learnt, the good memories obtained and the present.. I realli look forward to 24 Dec 2008 dinner..

Ermm.. suddenly feel like saying this "Thanks brothers for everything.. Friends Forever!!"..
Ermm.. Vin.. u certainly made mi emo!!.. lols.. Think i shall end here.. nites..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-11-23T01:08:00.003+08:00

喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚....
喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你....
喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你....
喜歡在你身邊....因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

幸福方程式：
一顆敢夢的心＋兩倍的努力＋三倍的行動
就能成就百分之的幸福和成功

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-11-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

UPDATE~!

hey yoz..

A little update again.. dun sae i nv update liao...

Ermm.. recently also nth much happen la.. juz tt.. i find tt.. for my DDD quiz, i am still currently cursed with this "7 pt curse"... Got 7/10 for 5 times le la.. walao.. emo sia.. haiz.. Hope i can break this curse from nxt quiz onwards!!

Ermm.. Den CO getting quite boring.. haiz.. nw de mi.. no chance to play those instruments i like liao.. haiz.. cos i too noob.. haiz.. is always like tt.. the strong gets the chance.. hardwork are nt visible.. onli results matters.. haiz.. hate this.. but no choice.. have to accept this.. nvm.. dun sae this le.. at least nw.. i am currently focusing on hw to improve my basis.. so nw i practising the basic drumming book.. hehex.. also nt bad.. quite fun.. currently at lesson 19.. =)

Ermm.. realised tt this sem.. realli freaking lots of projects la.. haiz.. wanna die le.. den nw FYP posters and stuff de dateline coming liao.. realli no time liao sia.. realli xiong liao la.. time to chiong!! argh!!

hahas.. think end here..nites...

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-11-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

Sweet~!

hey yoz..

Went out with her today.. went to plaza sing to watch Magadascar 2.. have been lookin forward to this date for veri long liao.. hahas.. finally come.. but abit disappointing sia.. haiz.. Everything was so good.. she was veri happy when we watch the movie.. but... things start turning bad when we intended to walk to bugis from plaza sing.. haiz... Everything is to blame on mi.. having no sense of direction... haiz..

Becos of this, we ended up walk a veri long dist for nth.. den make the both of us super tired la.. haiz.. Becos of this extra walk.. she gt abit fed up.. i feel so bad so sian lor.. haiz.. but still.. we finally reached our destination at bugis.. machiam journey to the west lor.. =.="..

Den we wanna go Fish n Co. eat.. but find veri long.. still canot find.. super sucky lor.. already so tired.. den still need find.. haiz.. den i veri stressed sia.. realli dunno wad to do.. but in the end.. managed to ask some ppl for direction and finally reached at Fish n Co...
FINALLY GET SOME REST LOR... haiz..

But luckily.. her mood turns for the better when we eating at Fish n Co. ... hahas.. so happy.. den chat chat chat there lor.. Everything becomes good again after the dinner despite the fact tt she is fed up juz nw.. hahas.. heng arh.. den we went back home lor..

Hahas.. today was a sweet day.. going out wif her.. see her happy realli make mi veri happy liao lor.. cos when she smile, she looks sweet.. lols.. =).. hahas.. kk.. tt's end of today's post.. hope to date her out more.. =)

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-11-10T17:15:00.003+08:00

Revival of my dead Blog~!

hahas.. sorry sorry.. ytd i too busy =(.. Erm.. think nw is the time to revive this dead blog liao.. If nt will be bury without anyone's notice le.. hahas..

Wow.. i was like so long nv blog liao.. abit dunno hw to start.. Ermm.. quite alot of things happened la.. so i juz summarise everything i can.. hahas..

First, Sch reopen liao.. actually nt much diff from my "Holiday", where i still need to go back Sch to do FYP... hahas.. but one diff is tt.. this sem realli alot of projects sia.. walao.. realli so much to do until i wan die liao =( .. Den CO also gt things to do.. This sem is like my busiest sem sia.. so many things to do, so many responsibility.. so many things to fan.. Den somemore is the last sem.. cant afford to fall at this last critical moment wor.. hahas...

Secondly arh... dunno y.. but gt this fker like see mi bu shuang sia.. go ard bad mouth mi sia.. sae all sort of bad stuff about mi.. Wad is worst is.. this guy is the same course as mi and also in CO sia.. wtf la.. i be PPVP, he fking lots of comments.. badmouth mi like fk.. nt happy juz come face to face settle wif mi la.. NBCB.. opps =X..

Hahas.. anyway.. i also think i shld reflect abit.. i think i too arrogant liao.. haiz.. so sorry sia if i offended ppl who noe mi.. including ilham.. cos mi n ilham de frenship like broken liao.. haiz.. so sad.. but well.. i cant blame anyone else except myself.. This yr is comin to an end soon.. now november liao.. so for my new year resolution, i wanna noe myself more.. and i wanna change to be even better.. i dun wan to hurt ppl ard mi liao xD...

Ermm.. seems like quite long nv go out with my grps of brothers liao.. but nw sch term.. also dun haf much chance to go out.. everyone is so busy.. including myself.. haiz.. shall see if gt chance ba.. and arh.. vin.. u sae mi always go beach.. nt sian arh??.. hahas.. seriously, i like nt sian leh.. cos i like those natural places where i cn juz go and relax.. at least i dun need to think so much and can enjoy the breeze from the sea and get myself off some stress.. hahas.. maybe u may think "hanming is siao de".. hahas.. but tt's mi arh.. i juz simply prefer beaches over town area which is so crowded with ppl.. hahas..

kk ba.. i think i shall end here.. dun worry.. i will update as and when i can.. wun let this blog die again liao.. and i nt emo liao la.. =) THough i am still single.. no body wans.. sobb.. hahas..

xIcez
hAnMing~

2008-10-03T23:49:00.002+08:00

Pain...

I noe i shldnt even walk this path...
But i had.... ...

initally i wanna avoid... to let go....
But i cant.. . ..

When i hear those stuff....
i feel jealous...
but wad can i do.....

i hope to be selfish..
but i cant...

nw tt i requested something like tt...
I hav no choice... . . .

And....

My heart hurts.. . . .

its painful.. . .

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-10-01T17:06:00.004+08:00

Blog..

hey hey.. nth to do so come blog.. hahaas..

Ermm.. Mon we went to celebrate clem bdae.. we went Kbox at JE.. my first time goin kbox wif frens sia.. normally is go wif family de.. my first time giv u all liao.. hahas.. but nt bad la.. starting no one dare sing like tt.. den after tt, all wan sing liao.. hahas.. hav quite alot of fun there.. also tired sia.. sing for 5hrs.. lols..

Ermm.. after tt we went to makan at JE.. Den we gave a surprise to clem.. this time realli something special sia.. celebrate bdae at foodcourt.. unique hor?? hahas.. clem.. this mus be an unforgettable memory for u ba.. hahas..

After tt, we went play pool.. sian.. becos need rush the PP proposal thingy.. if nt sure will stay and play longer de.. hahas.. nvm.. nxt time ba.. my pocket also quite broke liao.. becos of driving lesson lor.. but nvm.. at least i pass.. if nt xin tong sia.. hahas.. nw muz slowly amend my pocket liao.. ard 2 weeks can liao.. hahas.. so i will be guai boi boi for 2 weeks and stay at home =)..

Ermm.. den sch reopening soon sia.. sian.. my FYP canot finish on expected date liao.. in fact things seem quite bad =(.. nvm.. hope everything will be fine.. pray hard arh!! hahas..

想愛但不能愛

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-09-14T23:45:00.007+08:00

Bdae CelebrationS~!!!

hey hey.. initally dun wanna blog liao.. but today simply too happy liao.. den canot resist the temptation of nt blogging... soo..... here i am.. back blogging =P.. hehex..

Ermm.. today is wz bdae.. den tml is mine =).. whoever saw this muz giv present liao hor!! muahahahas =P.. So today we went pasir ris escape with wz, vin, clem, hy and ilham to play to celebrate our bdaes =).. we take wrong bus at first lor.. thx to ahem =x.. hahas.. den we still tot realli need "escape" liao.. hahas.. but heng.. we still reached.. but took a longer route.. Den when reach escape, we went to play inverter as warm-up lor -.-".. also thx to ahem.. hahas =x.. my first time playin inverter leh.. but is was veri fun.. hahas.. den nw vin also gt a new nick liao.. ms big thigh.. hahas.. cos the station crew sae his thigh big!! hahas.. den machine sensitive to BIG THIGHS!! hahas... =P..

Den we also gt play other games.. such as the gold kart.. also veri fun.. haiz.. gt overtaken by hockyong.. den he still go bump mi to the corner lor.. hai my kart stuck ther.. lols.. but i gt overtake tt sotong =P.. hahas.. den we also gt play the splash boat.. veri fun lor.. i keep splash water on WZ.. hahas.. end up we both all wet.. nono.. not juz both of us.. everyone is wet.. hahas.. we also gt play the battle ship, haunted hse and more la.. realli veri fun.. hahas..

After tt, we went to white sand de sakae to eat.. den also gt celebrate our bdae thr.. well.. i am realli surprised by the things prepare by u guys.. thanks alot guys!! ai si ni men le =).. they all giv mi n wz colgate sia.. somemore for age 2-5 de.. lols.. i gonna keep it.. den nxt time i gonna giv my children and tell them this is the lao pa de 19th bdae present.. hahas.. den mi n wz were made to get the candle thingy out using our mouth.. hahas.. den end up gt kena smack cakes on our faces.. den wz de present realli veri funny lor.. a bag with tentacruel and a small octopus inside.. hahas.. the octopus realli cute.. hahas.. thx for the shirts man =).. after tt we also went arcade play play.. all like addicted to the drumset liao.. hahas..

Overall realli enjoyed alot today.. nxt bdae will be clement's.. hehex.. we will give u a "SURPRISE" also de!! muahahahs.. thx guys once again.. hahas.. so happy!!

Ermm.. tml gt driving test.. omg.. realli scared also.. my final practical test liao.. hope i can pass and get my license =).. wish mi good luck!!

Ermm.. here are some photos tt we took today..

Erm.. think end here liao.. hahas.. =)

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-09-02T22:38:00.004+08:00

Signing Off...

hey hey.. its been 1 week since i last blog i think.. Erm.. previously, i mentioned tt i am super busy wif my FYP stuff and tt i am both physically n mentally tired.. well.. i did took a break.. realli a break for 3 days i think.. ermm.. after the break.. i am abit better both physically and mentally.. so things actually gt much better for mi liao..

Ermm.. my FYP recently juz got on track.. even though we juz failed our Set 3 experiment today -.-.. but nvm.. cos we r realli quite fast liao.. so everything is juz good.. hope we can get all the needed results before the sem start.. if not realli gg..

Ermm.. as for my good bro.. haiz.. i think he still in emo state.. i can realli feel hw he feels.. cos i hav been thru it too.. but seriously.. thr is nth i can do to help him except to go out n acc him when he needs.. i do feel helpless.. but i think leaving him alone to do wad he wans and let him think bout it himself will be the best way out for him ba.. i hope this good bro of mine will be fine.. if u ever need a listening ear, mine will always be available..

Aniway, i did tried my best to organise an outing for my brothers.. its been realli sooo long since we had last went out tgt.. realli do miss the days tgt wif u guys.. As mentioned in my first few post, u guys were the ones with mi throughout the darkest day of my life.. i thank u all once again even though we are nw abit distant.. but i do hope this coming sat outing will be a warm one.. hope it will narrow the distant between us all ba... if it doesnt..i would still sae i had done my best..

Erm.. den for my CO, i finally gt a rough picture of hw the timpani is played in the song "TaiYang" liao.. ermm.. but today came another person.. this guy plays timpani de.. den i feel veri bad.. cos i like "snatch" the timpani from him like tt.. haiz.. but if i giv up.. veri wasted leh.. cos i realli put in alot of effort in this song for timpani liao.. no matter wad.. i will pull thru it and play this in PP.. wish my good luck..

Ermm... as mentioned in my last post also.. bout my personal problems.. i think or rather i suppose it had not been solved ba.. ermm.. i think this isnt something others can help.. so is okie.. but in short.. i would sae tt i had juz struggled thru the darkest tunnel.. currently i haven fully recover from this aftershock.. and yet.. nw, i had juz walked and fallen into a deep hole which i shldnt had.. One difference is tt.. i am all alone this time.. Whether or not i can walked out of it like hw i walked thru the darkest tunnel is still a myth..

Erm.. actually i haf 3 wishes..

First..
i think i told veri little ppl.. but disbanding Shen Feng is one of my greatest regret in my life so far.. if i can be given another chance.. i will NEVER disband Shen Feng.. but too bad.. in life.. we canot hav too many "if".. but no matter wad.. i do wanna keep playing bball until i cant.. and i hope i can improve back my skills so tt i will nt be a noob again..

Second..
As mentioned on top bout CO, i do feel abit stressed bout playing timpani cos its the leading instrument for tt song.. so i do hope i can play well for this song in PP..

Lastly..
I wish tt..

ERmm.. i think my blog got alot of emo post liao.. let this be the last one ba.. life is short.. live it to the fullest.. so we shldnt spend too much time emo-ing.. Erm.. this will be the last post for nw.. i will not blog for a period of time liao.. i may or may never come back to blog ever again liao..

Ermm.. sorry.. i think this is the longest blog by mi so far sia.. psps..this may be the last post liao.. and for those who read till nw.. thanks for ur patience..

Erm.. i think i will be signing off nw..

though the time is short...
but its deep...
though is single player...
but its not player-control..
nw tt its like tt...
there are no options but to...

Signing off...
FrozenIcez...
hAnMing~

2008-08-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

emo ... ... ... ... ... ...
my life seems so dull nw....

Ermm...

Today went to celebrate bloody de bdae.. We went his hse thr BBQ.. gt mi, vin, clem, xl, yong, lester n wz.. den we also gt buy a chain for him.. skull chain.. hahas.. ermm.. actually mi n bloody like long time no tok le.. den feel abit weird when he suddenly invite us to his bdae.. den when reach thr.. gt alot of his poly class mates.. in actual fact.. i feel quite left out.. i think nt onli mi ba.. i think all of us except his poly frens ba.. cos his poly frens machiam treat like their own party liao.. lols.. but is okie la.. is bloody's big day ma.. as long as he happy cn le.. ermm.. but bloody still gt come chat to us la.. i noe he also in a tough spot.. but nt bad la.. we still crap alot cos we gt the ultimate crapper, vin- the zai bo.. hahas.. so overall still nt bad la.. though i didnt eat much and i am super hungry!! argh!! super bad service!! i wanna see ur manager!! .. hahas.. jkjk..

Ermm.. Recently i am sooooo busy wif my FYP.. tons and tons of experiments stacking up liao.. Actually hope to finish most of them today de.. but who noes.. instead of finishing them.. i screwed them up!! haiz.. nw hav to re-optimise set 1.. sian..ended up even more work to do.. haiz.. nw abit canot make it liao.. i am realli realli tired..den also gt some personal problems.. haiz.. maybe is i think too much.. but the bottomline is still tt... i am veri fan!! haiz.. i am both mentally n physically tired le.. haiz.. i realli need a break!! but i cant find any time to hav a break!! haiz..

Den recently also find yong like quite emo like tt.. haiz.. i realli feel tt i am the one who caused him to be like wad he is nw.. haiz.. i realli wanna help him.. but i realli dunno hw.. and i also tooo busy to do anything nw.. haiz.. so fan!! i realli find tt we all these brothers like gt gap le.. haiz.. dun realli feel the warmth like hw i felt before le.. it realli makes mi feel so alone.. haiz.. i hate this feeling.. sian.. fan fan fan....

EmoIcez
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2008-08-17T01:09:00.003+08:00

CO concert~!

hey yoz.. quite some time no blog le.. tink i better update if nt ltr vin zai come here sae "hmm.. i gt something to tell u.. but i dunno hw to sae.. " again.. hahas..

Ermm.. today went to watch the ailin's CO concert at esplanade with Yijie, Jianlong and his laopo, winnie.. still nt bad la.. i love their first song.. Perhaps is becos of the drum set ba.. hahas.. i juz simply love drum set.. trying hard to learn nw aniway =).. After tt, went to eat lor.. but ailin nv come along cos she sae she hurt her leg i think.. ermm.. take care anyway =).. den actually wanna go play Pool de.. but.. JL de lao po dun wan.. haiz.. so nv go.. sian lor.. mi n Yj wanna go leh.. sad.. lols.. but in the end gt go arcade play la.. JL play danona(dunno spell correct ma) machiam like real driving like tt.. so slow and steady de.. lols.. but he still gt 3rd leh.. though is out of 5.. hahas..

Ermm.. i think i shall end here ba.. anyway.. i recently also quite fan sia.. haiz.. i think she find mi fan le.. sad.. den always see her on9 also dunno wad to tok to her bout.. sian.. think like wad vin zai sae ba.. frens first.. haiz.. no choice also.. sian.. =x.. nites..

Icez
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2008-07-29T00:01:00.005+08:00

Sick liao~!

Hey yoz.. here i am updating again...

Ermm... today juz had my NAPFA test.. the tester for the 5 stations, xiong sheng, giv us chance.. tt's y i cn get a silver.. hahas.. not bad la.. at least dun need go NS 1 month earlier and come out 1 month later.. hahas.. but quite sad also.. cos my 2.4km 11.51min.. if i was 11 seconds faster.. i get gold le.. argh!! den compare to my sec sch score.. nw i realli sux sia -.-".. last time de 2.4km is 9 min plus 10 min like tt de lor.. nw.. haiz.. but one thing tt nv change is tt my standing board jump.. still as lan.. lols.. but pull-up gt improve abit.. last time 4 i think.. nw 7 =)..

Ermm.. den i ytd diarrhea whole day sia.. zzz lor.. den today still haven recover.. still the same lor.. den becos i dun wanna postpone my NAPFA.. so i juz force myself run.. den after the whole NAPFA thingy, i realli feel like vomitting sia.. nv eat much and yet so much to come out -.-"... haiz.. den when reach home.. i feel so giddy sia -.-".. den nw.. i having fever.. 37.5 degree.. haiz.. i seems so weak sia.. sian..

Juz nw got tok to her.. den realised tt.. she doubt mi!! haiz.. she thought tt all the things i do and sae gt motive de -.-".. sad sad sad.. haiz.. but at least she still cares for mi.. (use to an wei myself de words >.<"..)

Ermm.. think end here le.. Aku taboleh tahan liao..

Icez
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2008-07-27T16:03:00.002+08:00

UPDATE LE!!!

hey yoz.. sorry for the super late update.. normally ppl is nth happen so nv update.. but for mi.. recently, too many things happened.. realli so many that i dunno hw and too tired to update le.. haiz..

Erm.. for mi.. my previous problem settled le.. cos its all over.. intially i realli feel veri guilty.. but nw.. nt sae nt feeling guilty le.. but.. is tt.. the guilt is kinda reduced by alot le.. but still.. i dui bu qi ni.. i am realli sorry..

Haiz.. also becos of tt problem.. nw.. i realli dunno whether to go for it or not.. fan fan fan!!! vin tell mi to folo my feeling.. but i like no feeling le.. -.-".. numb liao.. dunno wad i wan.. fan fan fan!! argh!!

Den somemore.. yong recently like alot of problems sia.. den i kinda feel tt is my fault like tt.. sorry sia.. haiz.. but at least ytd nite tok to yong n her.. hope u 2 will have a nice talk and may everything turns out well for u 2..

haiz.. den napfa on mon.. standing board jump and pull up realli my weak point sia.. haiz.. realli gg liao.. sian.. sometimes.. i realli feel like slpin and stoning all the way.. but even if i do tt.. things still remains the same.. nth is solved.. wish mi good luck ba...

Icez
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2008-07-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

I am sorry..

yoz.. have not been blogging for some time.. Actually at this time, i should be doing my safety assignment de.. haiz.. but dunno y.. kinda no mood..

haiz.. recently veri busy with FYP, NPCO and some personal stuff.. haiz.. so fan lor.. previously hav CO performance which is so last min.. but luckily managed to get over it although i think is nt veri well done.. haiz.. maybe i too noob le.. den for FYP.. after finish this safety thingy, everything shld be on track le ba.. i suppose and hope so ba..

Den somemore.. nw NAPFA coming.. realli have to train hard for it.. i dun wanna fail it.. i dun wanna waste my 2 months in NS.. and i hope to get a gold.. but pull-up and standing board jump i realli cmi sia.. who cn help mi and acc mi in training leh???

Den for personal stuff leh.. haiz.. realli fan.. its been onli 1 month plus leh.. but i juz feel tt is wrong to even start like tt.. den feel tt there are damn lots of obstacles like tt.. den i realli feel like a coward and dun dare to face it.. but u r so strong.. it realli makes mi feel so guilty..it seems tt u hav been fighting alone and yet i am doin nth except to hurt u.. alot of things.. i realli dun haf the courage to tell u.. and i realli dunno hw to sae out.. haiz.. pls dun treat mi so good.. i dun deserve it.. u r realli good.. the problem lies in mi.. haiz.. sometimes i realli hope someone cn share my problems with mi.. but who.. i realli dunno who to find liao lor.. haiz.. problems shld be solved by ourselves.. but y am i always so dependent on others.. feel so weak...

Haiz...

Icez
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2008-06-30T02:29:00.003+08:00

UPDATES!! Sentosa Outing~!

hey yoz.. today i gonna update bout wad happen on sat 28 jun.. lols.. late update cos i veri lazy and tired to update =x.. hahas..

Erm.. sat i went for a Sentosa outing wif my poly classmates.. initally wanna find my poly classmates nia.. but all so busy den put aeroplane somemore.. u guys noe who r u =P.. hahas.. jkjk.. den becos too little ppl.. i asked yong n clem along.. hahas.. den end up, those who turn up got jo, pf, wei san, yl, clem, yong.. Den we went Sentosa Silso beach play lor.. quite fun leh.. play beach games and water activity and got scratched by jo.. thx arh.. lols.. den yong also gt slap until swollen by jo.. haiz.. u cn imagine hw violent jo is.. better dun offend her =P.. hahas..

Erm.. den after goin the beach, mi yong n clem went Sim Lim Square cos yong wanna buy PSP.. den actually wanna go home after tt de.. cos realli tired.. but who noes.. the gals met us at bugis and we went for another round of fun.. lols.. we went arcade after tt.. we gt play the bball machine and i gt smacked until my specs dunno fly whr lor -.-".. den i finally realised tt... playing bball in arcade is actually more dangerous den playing real bball >.<".. Den we also gt play the drum drum game.. den yong keep lose to jo.. hahas.. den mi clem n yong decide to buy one drum go back train.. lols..

Erm.. den one more thing.. mi, yong, clem, my bro and jun formed a dota team!! hahas.. named FiRe.x.. and my nick is FiRe.xIcez.. nice hor?? hahas.. dunno y i sae this.. but juz feel like saying so i sae lor.. hahas.. =P.. Erm.. think i end here ba.. tired le.. tml still gt meeting.. nites..

Icez
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2008-06-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

BBQ~!

hey yoz.. recently like abit dun feel like updating blog le.. lols.. lazy liao.. hahas.. but still.. here i am.. blogging.. hahas..

Ermm.. ytd went for the BBQ which i spend quite some time and effort to organise de.. den nt bad la.. the weather quite good.. but nt all turn up.. den realli sorry cos the BBQ pit i book is super far away.. lols.. those who come gt yong, mi, clem, vin, lester, wz, xiaoxi, chenyong, leo, nazz, sokhwee, kohli and shibao.

Initally meet 4pm den wanna play some beach and water activity de.. but... we all reached ard 5pm like tt.. haiz.. den no water activity.. quite disappointed.. but at least.. we ton there overnight den gt play alot of games.. tt makes the disappointment goes away.. hahas.. But when wanna go home.. den suddenly rain veri heavily lor.. haiz.. den all of us hide in the ladies toilet sia.. lols.. wad a memorable scene.. lols..

Although this BBQ didnt turn out to be as fun as i expected.. but still.. its quite fun la.. hahas.. i think i shall organise a chalet nxt if i can.. since wz suggested.. hahas.. i muz jia you.. and, guys muz giv mi support wor.. hahass..

Erm.. tml gt FYP meeting.. i suppose FYP starting le ba.. kinda look forward to the FYP but dun look forward to sch reopen.. lols.. think i stop here le.. nites...

Icez
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2008-06-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

LAST DAY OF IAP..

hey yoz.. today last day of my attachment liao.. kinda sad and happy sia.. sad tt attachment end le.. happy tt holiday start le =)..

Ermm.. during these 4 mths of attachment, realli happen alot of things.. noe alot of frens.. and also learn alot of things.. hahas.. the ppl in my lab realli nt bad.. veri nice ppl.. den also got to noe aaron and wah yean.. all good ppl.. hahas.. Realli enjoy my attachment with these ppl ard.. Ya.. one more group of frens.. my IAP Schmates.. hahas.. attachment wun be fun without them ard.. hahas.. thanks alot ppl =)..

Initially today wanna celebrate vin's bdae de.. but becos its my last day of attachment.. den realli dunno when will see my attachment frens again.. so i realli hope to acc them and enjoy the last sec of our attachment.. so sorry vin i hav to postpone ur bdae celebration =(..

Ermm.. today had pizza for lunch.. den juz nw after the last hr of our IAP, realli veri sad lor.. did as much experiments as i cn for my supervisor for the last time.. den fill up tips for the very last time for him.. do everything in the lab for the last time.. look at my slping area for the last time.. haiz.. realli sad lor.. T_T.. Den b4 i go.. i gave him a packet of chocolate as a token of appreciation.. realli thank him for teaching mi for this past 4 mths.. den went ard my lab and wave goodbye to all.. thanks everyone for teaching mi.. T_T...

After the work finally end... mi, putri, hoeching, dhuha, felicia and lende went out.. initially is full strength de.. but qing sae she veri tired.. den dun wanna go.. i suppose she cant bear to leave this place ba.. cheer up~! .. den we went to take photos all ard biopolis.. realli sad to noe tt we leaving liao.. den we also went to the park near biopolis to play and take photos.. den hoe ching realli damn funny.. our future professional drummer sia.. hahas.. realli make mi laugh until stomach pain la.. lols..

After tt.. we went to Swensen at orchard to eat.. also chat and crap alot there.. of cos, take alot of photos thr.. den finally, we went walk walk den part le.. sad sia.. lets hope we will have another outing soon.. depend on u liao putri =).. the photos if cn den i upload ba.. realli alot.. hahas.. but is realli a fun and sad day..

Ermm... think i shall end here ba.. super tired sia.. holiday is nxt.. =).. but b4 there.. muz settle my final report.. zzz.. abit sian..

Icez
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2008-05-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

My first driving lesson!!

Hey Yoz.. juz came back from my first driving practical.. hahas.. driving is so fun sia.. hahas.. den arh.. damn paiseh juz nw lor.. my steering like so lan at first sia.. den keep kena sae by instructor.. lols.. den arh.. i make the car stall 3 times.. cos i forgot to depress clutch when braking.. den somemore juz nw raining.. so i veri nervous lor.. lols.. first time leh.. hahas.. but is fun... =)

Ermm.. den today also kinda sad.. cos vin sick.. den tml cant go out liao.. also quite disappointed sia.. haiz.. but no choice la.. brothers come first.. hahas.. take care arh vin.. when u recover we go out.. hahas..

Erm.. think tt's the end of today ba.. i go dota le.. hahas..

Icez
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2008-05-23T20:25:00.003+08:00

Sian-ed..

Long time no blog.. here i am blogging again.. this week is realli a bad bad week.. nv felt so tired before.. This week, my lab came a new attachment student.. den realli make my work become so busy, tiring and stress..

Initially this sat wanna go sentosa de.. den last min cancel again.. haiz.. i realli dun understand one thing.. y no matter hw i sms.. ppl juz dun bother to reply.. if those ppl r normal frenz.. i dun mind.. but these ppl are ppl who i treat as brothers.. realli brothers.. haiz..or maybe they juz dun even regard mi as their brother ba.. haiz.. Sometimes it realli makes mi feel so outcasted.. realli make mi feel so hated and unwelcomed by ppl.. haiz.. no one can understand tt feeling of loneliness in mi now.. sian-ed is all i cn sae.. haiz..

Den jus nw, ilham called to sae play bball.. den i was like having this feeling of goin but tired to go.. but ended up.. cancelled.. zzz.. haiz.. dunno y.. i am sian.. i wanna go out.. but i am tired to go out.. aiya.. also dunno hw to sae.. haiz.. juz have this weird feeling..

Sometimes i realli hope i gt a gf who cn comfort mi when i am down.. but it seems so impossible.. haiz.. den in the past, i would think nvm.. cos i still haf my brothers.. but now.. it seems like impossible too.. i realli feel so alone..

haiz.. realli veri sian.. i am so tired.. this is a tiredness which i have nv felt before.. nt onli physically.. but mentally also.. haiz.. Haiz.. i also dunno hw to sae.. on the surface it seems like nth much has happened.. but deep inside.. i feel tt as if a lot of things have happened and i realli need to take a break.. realli hope to go out and relax for once.. But how.. sian..

Icez => Sian-ed ><
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2008-05-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

FUN DAy~

hey yoz.. juz reached home nt long ago.. hahas.. Today went out wif my IAP frens.. finally sia.. cos we was like keep wanting to go out but keep gt ppl cant make it >.<".. den today finally we went out liao and IAP also ending soon liao.. sad..

Erm.. today mi, qing, putri, dhuha and hoe ching went to The Cathay to watch the movie "What Happen in Vegas".. hahas.. is a funny movie i muz sae.. and also gt romance in it.. overall is nice.. hahas.. den after tt we went arcade play.. hahas.. we play the danona ( i dunno hw to spell.. is a car game) and qing amazingly won the first round sia.. lols.. after tt we also gt play other games.. den gt play this photo hunt.. hahas.. funny sia.. seems like the guys cn do better den the gals =x.. hahas.. After tt Dhuha gt hit the hammer thingy.. den wow.. Dhuha strong sia.. the high score is 914.. he cn hit 867 sia.. POWER!! hahas.. if i hit maybe 500 also dunno haf anot.. hahas..

After tt went home tgt wif qing on bus 106.. initially tot she will slp.. but end up we chat the whole journey sia.. lols.. den actually wanna see her home de.. but she sae nvm.. den i also dun insist but got worry abit.. but heng she reach home safely le.. hahas..

Ermm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. its a long, tiring and fun day.. hahas..

Icez
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2008-05-14T21:38:00.003+08:00

WOO!! i PASSED!! hahas..

Hey yoz.. juz finish my dinner.. hahas.. Erm.. today during work is super busy sia.. hahas.. cos today i got FTT.. den need go at 10.30am.. den realli wtf sia.. the workload has nv been so much la.. today is the most among the whole of my IAP lor.. >.<"..

Den arh.. today during work, i did a stupid thing >.<.. today i ran a Agarose gel..den gt result.. den i was told to do a gel extraction.. den i chat chat chat wif my supervisor.. den suddenly, i tell my supervisor:" this gel abit long le.. i throw away hor..." den i str8 throw.. den after tt, i tell my supervisor tt i will remake a gel.. den my supervisor was thr okok like tt.. den after 5mins, he suddenly sae:" i tot u need to do gel extraction??" LOLS.. den i tell him the gel in the rubbish bin liao.. lols.. end up still need dig the bin sia.. lucky cn find.. lols.. dumb lor >.<"..

Erm.. den today went to take FTT.. second time taking le.. den realli suay sia.. rain so heavily... went there already all wet liao.. realli gonna fall sick liao lor.. but heng i... PASSED my FTT arh!! hahas.. so my effort wasnt wasted!! woo!!.. finally cn go for practical liao.. hahas..

Erm.. think tt is the end of today's post ba.. realli veri tired.. i go rest rest liao =D..

Icez
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2008-05-11T00:35:00.004+08:00

Went Pasir Ris today~!

hey yoz.. here i am to update again.. hahas.. juz nw went out wif CO frens to Pasir Ris park.. gt Jingxiu, Winnie and Yi huey.. pathetic hor?? onli 4 ppl.. lols.. den somemore, today i overslept.. meet 3pm i reach at 5pm >.<".. den when reach, jingxiu sae gt something pop out.. need go le.. den left we 3.. super pathetic rite?? lols.. the number of ppl is pathetic.. but still.. is kinda fun..hahas..

Went there to roller blade.. den i nv roller blade b4 lor.. Ice skate jiu gt la.. lols.. den among we 3, onli Yi Huey noe hw to blade..den she teach us.. hahas.. den as expected, i keep falling.. lols.. realli first time find walking so tough sia.. hahas.. But arh.. nt onli i keep falling lor.. winnie also keep falling.. lols.. the number of times she fall = number of times i fall.. lols.. we on par la.. hahas.. end up, i also nv realli learn hw to roller blade lor.. but i gt learn something.. tt is to walk with roller blade on grass.. hahas.. Winnie also.. LOLS..

After roller blading, we went to the rocks there sit sit tok tok.. kinda crap alot.. lols.. maybe is i tok too much.. lols.. and i also found out tt CO is actually a match-making club.. hahas.. but anyway, is a fun day though.. hope to haf more outing wif u ppl too.. hahas..

Ermm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. nw i goin to dota liao.. lols.. cya~!

Icez
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2008-05-10T01:46:00.002+08:00

Suay Day~!

Hey yoz.. havin my dinner nw.. or rather supper.. hahas.. cos juz nw went bball wif vin, nazz, yong, clem, leo, ah-ham, my bro, vin'bro and vin's fren at vin's hse thr.. tt's y so late reach home..hahas.. alot of "vin" sia.. lols.. den nw super tired sia.. >.<".. vin, see i so good.. go ur hse there play bball wif u leh.. gt feel touched?? hahas..

Erm.. den juz nw veri suay lor.. when we on our way to the bball court, vin n yong kinda "shooting" each other.. den i haf a feeling tt they will "shoot" mi nxt.. den i turn to leo and tell him better dun tok if nt kena "shoot".. den guess wad??? after saying tt to leo, i fall into a drain >.<".. wtf la.. the drain is like all cover with the cover except for one small area and i "heng heng" drop into tt small area >.<".. so suay lor.. wads worst is i dun even noe i drop into a drain la =.=".. den end up a big cut.. haiz..

Den when we play bball arh, i kena smack on my face by ilham sia.. i noe tt wasnt intentional.. but still... pain sia.. lols.. cut my face abit sia.. haiz.. so suay lor.. >.<".. but nvm la.. hope sat wun be so suay cos i think i shld be goin out wif CO frens.. hahas..

Ermm.. i think i end here for nw.. tired liao.. hahas.. i going for a dota match den orh orh liao xD.. anyway, vin.. y u feel lost arh?? need someone to tok to can always find mi.. cheer up bro =D..
Nites~

Icez
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2008-05-06T23:22:00.003+08:00

UPDATE LIAO~! hahas..

hey yoz.. long time no blog liao.. better blog some shit out if nt clem sae mi again.. hahas..

Ermm.. juz came back from CO.. quite tired sia.. first time so late go home from CO sia.. cos today special.. today i kinda gt a test from Julian (My teacher who is younger den mi >.<.. but he realli pro.. ).. but i kinda fail sia.. lols.. i noe hw to sae out the piece.. but when comes to playing.. gg.. hahas.. but i will do my best to improve de!! hahas..

Ermm.. den today in CO arh, i gt a new family member sia.. her name is FU XIAO XI.. hahas.. cos she bet wif mi ma.. look down on mi sae i sure dunno hw to write her name.. den still giv mi chance wor.. sae i noe hw to use HP find her name cn le.. if i win, she change her surname to mine.. hahas.. den she toot toot de.. veri easy trick.. so i win lor.. hahas.. nw she is not XIONG XIAO XI liao.. she is FU XIAO XI!! hahas.. xD!! hahas..

Ermm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. need to go have my dinner liao.. hahas..
cya~

Icez
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2008-04-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

Bad DaY~!

Hey yoz.. sorri for the super super late update.. recently realli busy studying for my FTT and also watching dou niu yao bu yao.. hahas.. finishing soon.. i think realli veri nice lor.. hebe super sweet =D.. hahas..Anyway, i bought a new pair of specs recently.. is a half-frame de spec.. but when i wear, i kinda feel tt i look weird leh.. but my fren sae i look brighter.. realli meh?? lols.. hope so..

Ermm.. today juz went for my FTT.. and i failed >.<".. sian lor.. i study overnight ytd lor.. nv dota nv slp.. den fail.. haiz haiz haiz.. den arh.. today initally wanna go out wif yong to Orchard Taka de.. but reali sian den nv go.. but we plan to go tml.. maybe cn see if gt nice clothes cn buy.. hahas..

Den today dota at home wif my bro n yong.. den realli damn fucked up lor.. keep DC.. sian.. my connections realli damn unstable nowadays lor.. damn sian.. cant have a complete game.. den juz nw went bball wif my bro.. initally wanna train my bro de.. den when we reach blk 182 (near a court which is my training area when i still noob), den saw a group of malays playing soccer.. damn sian lor.. haiz.. den went play at another court.. den thr gt a group of kids.. i go thr shoot shoot.. den gt one small kid "shoot" the ball at my face cos he no strength.. wtf la.. den smash my specs la.. fk sia.. den the specs kinda cut my face and my lips lor.. knn.. sian.. but heng nt my new specs la.. i am nt gonna wear my new specs for bball!! haiz.. realli a bad bad day lor.. nv been so suay before sia.. haiz.. wads nxt??? haiz..

Anyway.. recently heard tt leo gt gf le.. woo.. congrats to him.. hahaz.. he fufil his wish of havin a gf before 19 liao.. den see him gt gf.. kinda envy sia.. lols.. also hope i cn haf the feeling of love again.. but on the other hand, i also kinda tired of relationship le.. haiz.. kinda contridicting.. also dunno wad i wan.. den now i gt kinda like a gal.. vin u all noe who.. but i also dunno whether this liking is becos i lack for love or izit becos i realli like her.. haiz.. but no matter wad.. no hope de la.. lols.. haiz.. think i will leave everything to fate ba.. live my life as wad it is now ba.. cos i also kinda enjoy my life wif my fren nw.. hahas..

Erm.. think i will end here ba.. bad day bad day >.<".. hope tml will be better =D.. think i goin for a rd of dota xD.. hahaz.. cya.. *finally i updated.. LOLS..*

Icez
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2008-04-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

I AM FAT!! SIAN~

yoz.. juz came back from playin bball wif clem, ilham, wz and my bro at bbcc.. hahas.. play till so shiok sia.. i totally exhaust my energy la.. nw kinda flat.. hahas..

Ermm.. i also kinda sad and worry leh.. cos.... ilham sae i fat!! omg la.. sad sia.. lols.. by right, cant eat more den 2 eggs PER WEEK.. but i eat 2 eggs PER DAY!!! omg la.. super lots of cholesterol sia.. lols.. but realli sian lor.. i fat T_T.. normally onli hear ppl sae i skinny.. ask mi eat more.. first time heard ppl sae i fat sia.. haiz..

sian.. i dun care.. i wanna go on DIET!! ARGH!! lols.. ermm.. super tired nw.. gonna go rest liao.. if nt tml flat.. and one more thing.. i dare to go dark room myself le hor!! muahahaha.. although onli go awhile.. lols..

Icez
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2008-04-13T23:43:00.005+08:00

Bye SP guy.. Sian~

Hey yoz.. today sunday.. den as usual, slp till afternoon or rather evening 4pm like tt.. come to think of it, i kinda wasted my whole day.. argh!! i am not gonna dota till late every nite liao.. and i mean it!! hahas..

Ermm... last fri was aaron de last day liao.. so far my attachment gt about 1.5 to 2 months liao.. haiz.. time flies.. normally attachment is veri fun de.. cos gt Aaron to crap wif.. but tml onwards, no more liao.. kinda sad sia.. though i like noe him for onli this attachment period.. but dunno y.. got tt kinda close de feeling ( as a fren i mean.. i nt gay!! )..

Actually, before i noe Aaron, Vin is the onli one among my brothers and frens who noes how i feel and understand mi the best.. But now.. it seems that, Aaron also kinda understand mi a little.. but surprisingly leh.. i also dunno y.. lols.. Anyway.. juz kinda sad tt i alone liao.. lols..

Hmm.. gt 2 photos which mi n Aaron took tt time due to bo liao ness.. hahas..

Ermm.. tml i am gonna go dark room myself le.. tt's wad i fear most >.<".. sian.. hope tt from tml onwards, everytime i go dark room, there will be ppl inside.. den at least i wun be scared le.. hahas..

Erm.. hope everything turns out well for mi.. hahas.. Anyway.. i kinda addicted to a show [Bull Fighting].. hahas.. cos hebe is so cute!! hahas.. kk.. think i end here liao.. tired le.. tml gonna fight myself le.. hahas.. nites..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-04-06T21:49:00.004+08:00

Injured~..

yoz.. juz nw went to play bball wif my bro.. den i was like wow.. cos alot of ppl sia.. lols.. den we play a 6v6 match.. full court.. is totally imba de lor.. opponent team is all so tall sia.. shortest also around my height... den my team arh.. tallest around my height nia.. totzlly gg lor.. lols.. but nt bad la.. at least gt in some balls.. gt break the egg.. lols..

den arh.. i nv wear any shoes sia.. onli wear slipper.. den end up.. BLISTER.. lols.. its been quite long since i hav blister le.. but this time quite serious sia.. cos can see a big patch of blood inside.. lols.. and is super pain la.. T_T... den tml work still need wear covered shoe wor.. think i am gonna limp to work liao.. sian.. den arh.. still gt kinda cut abit on my legs sia.. sian lor.. makes mi feel so weak and fragile sia >.<"... Anyway.. juz nw nt bad la.. except tt some of them quite xialan and tt i gt injured.. its quite a enjoyable match.. hahas..

Think i shall end here.. quite tired.. tml still gt work.. anyway.. gt to start reading up for my FTT liao.. i dun wanna fail!!!.. hahas...

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-04-05T01:56:00.006+08:00

Fren4ever..

Yoz.. today fri.. end of the week.. so shiok.. lols.. Den today my company gt happy hour.. den gt free beer.. initially gt free food de.. but when reach there, onli left empty plates nia.. lols.. but at least still gt beer la.. so nt tt bad.. den i took a bottle of STELLA ARTOIS.. lols.. i veri seldom drink beer de.. den my face all red sia.. den mi n aaron damn high la.. lols.. crap n crap n crap.. lols.. heng nv meet her.. if nt i sae wrong things den die.. lols..

After tt, i went to vin hse thr play bball wif clem, wz, my bro, vin's bro, ilham, vin and his 3 frens.. first time go vin's new hse.. or rather to him, its veri old le.. lols.. We went to 2 courts.. but all full.. den finally went to CC thr play.. they sae the rim sux.. but to mi, still okok la.. maybe i used to play wif rim worst than tt.. lols..

Anyway, things were fine all the way till the last match.. haiz.. i wanna haf some achievements ma.. den i play till veri serious.. den clem also play till veri serious.. haiz.. den up we 2 crash.. i def too violently le.. haiz.. den end up i shouted at clem >.<".. so sorry clem.. Haiz.. den ilham tok to mi.. he sae many things arh.. super lot.. den i onli understand like 20% of it nia.. Its not i dun wanna understand.. but its juz tt i cant understand.. but wad u sae is rite.. losing a game doesnt mean u lost.. In fact, losing a game can be winning in life.. Ya.. maybe i shld juz giv in more.. like wad u sae.. whats the diff between frens and strangers.. Its tt frens noe hw to giv in to one another but strangers dun.. true frens try to understand u and wun step down on u when u r down.. though i dun quite understand wad u sae.. but still.. thanks ilham..

Anyway i noe tt i hav a veri bad attitude.. and many ppl hated mi.. though i tried to change and still cant.. but i will still conti to work hard.. it may appears to many tt i am nt even trying.. but i am.. seriously.. but like wad vin sae.. its nt easy to change a person's character.. but i will try.. and hope tt day come.. i dun wan the whole world to hate mi..

Anyway.. thanks vin too.. thanks for tokin to mi n giving mi advice juz nw.. dunno why.. i juz feel tt u r always the one who cn realli understand mi the best.. we may nt be sch mates nw.. we may nt be the best bball partners.. but to mi, u will always be my best brother.. anyway.. dun worry.. i nt gay.. hahas.. but i realli treasure our frenship.. i hope it will last forever..

Same goes to the rest of my brothers.. i realli enjoy the times when we r together.. tt's the happiest moments of my life.. Though we quarrel, we crap.. but no one else except u guys cn realli make mi feel the warmth.. Thanks guys.. thanks alot.. seriously.. u guys were the ones who cn realli tolerate my fucking bad attitude.. i will do my best to be better.. thanks guys..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-04-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

I Changed my Blogskin =D~

Yoz.. juz changed my blogskin.. dunno whether nice anot.. but at least nt like last time tt emo blogskin le.. hahas..

Hmm.. today work veri tired in the morning leh.. den i damn clumsy.. i added the wrong stuff into my tubes.. den end up screwed up.. den also arh.. i drop the SDS-PAGE gel.. is the gel wif my samples on it la.. zzz.. at first the gel haven break de.. juz stick on the floor.. but i veri nervous.. den i use the scrapper to scrap it up >.<.. den end up tear.. lols.. but i did try to piece them back and do transferring.. but in the end, no results.. lols.. scarly is becos i tear the gel sia.. lols..

Ermm.. i also dunno sae wad liao.. nth much actually except tt i am super tired.. lols.. tml still gt work.. is gonna be super busy.. think i will juz stop here.. nites..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

Sentosa Trip~

Yoz Yoz.. Initially wanna blog ytd de.. But... i went flat after i went home.. lols.. flat till today morning.. Den morning juz went to pay respect to my ancestors wif my parents.. The weather is super hot sia.. sweating like dunno wad.. lols..

Hmm.. Ytd went to Sentosa wif vin, yong, clem, jess, lester and ilham.. it was realli veri veri fun sia.. hahas.. Dunno hw long nv go sentosa le lor.. den ytd go, i find tt wow.. sentosa like changed alot sia.. lols.. the last time i go, the train still nt done yet la.. lols.. Ytd we play the game tt yong sae.. dunno wad the name sia.. but it was fun.. and tiring too.. hahas.. den these bunch of guys arh, like rapist sia.. keep wanna pull off others de shorts.. lols.. heng gt tie tight enuff arh =P.. hahas.. But it was fun la.. hahas..

We also gt took quite some photos of the stunts and patterns we did there.. hahas.. And also arh.. Ilham was buried.. hahas.. den also gt a video and some nice pics of his "ahem" being exposed.. hahas.. Den still got yong's magical spoon.. hahas.. best for building sand castle liao.. lols..

After tt, we went vivo to have dinner.. den all super tired liao.. so i think go home flat like mi le ba..lols.. And i also gt burnt T_T.. but it was a fun day.. It will be even more fun if Jess were to join us in the water.. hahas.. we will make sure she "fly".. hahas.. Anyway.. hope those who put us aeroplane like wad vin sae =X.. can join us nxt time.. hahas.. More ppl more fun.. hahas.. thx guys for making the sentosa trip a success and a enjoyable one.. hahas.. thx to lao tian too.. cos the weather was kinda good.. hahas.. Lets have it nxt time!! hahas...

Here are some pics we took:

Opps.. i think i put alot of photos liao.. hahas.. the videos need convert den cn put.. lazy la.. lols.. if anyone wanna see it den tell mi ba.. hahas.. Think i shall end here.. hahas =D..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Tired~..

Yoz.. pai seh arh.. recently busy sia.. lots of work to do, games to play and still have BTT to study for.. tt's y nv update.. hahas.. dun announce my blog dead hor.. i dun wanna waste a phoenix down.. hahas..

Erm.. had my BTT test ytd.. Its a common sense - based paper.. and tt' s the reason y i scare to fail.. cos once i fail = i no common sense =.=".. but heng arh.. managed to pass tt BTT.. hahas.. nxt is the FTT.. heard is tough.. well.. lets see.. hahas.. Den ytd after pass BTT, so happy la.. den play game till 3 plus.. lols.. den today morning, i am juz a piece of dead meat.. lols.. I am super tired la.. Morning still nt tt bad.. nt tt busy.. den quite alot of time to slp.. but the more i slp, the more tired i get sia.. sian.. den afternoon is gg.. hahas.. busy la.. no slpin time >.<"..

Aiya.. i also dunno wad to sae liao sia.. lols... but nvm.. at least i updated my blog though is abit of nonsense.. hahas.. Anyway.. i am looking forward to this coming sat de sentosa trip.. Hope lao tian zhuo mei.. hahas.. hope the weather will be super good.. hahas.. den i will definitely blog on sat.. hope tt time will haf alot of photos so easier to blog.. hahas.. Ermm.. think i end here liao.. tired.. CANOT MAKE IT liao.. hahas.. Yea!! i updated.. Bye~

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-21T02:55:00.000+08:00

Dinner with AirCon!! hahas..

Yoz.. today work veri busy wor.. den i am super tired.. hahas.. den at nite.. went out for dinner wif vin, lester and jeremy.. at first still tot alot of ppl wor.. but hu noes.. tio conned.. lols.. but nvm.. though veri little ppl nia.. but we enjoyed ourselves chatting thr.. realli sia.. as long as gt vin, sure gt crap de.. hahas..

Hmm.. long time no see jeremy le lor.. juz nw saw him.. he like not much change la.. still as cold as the past.. but he gt bigger size le.. hahas.. but no matter wad, once an aircon, always an aircon.. hahas.. hmm.. den arh.. i cant imagine sia.. i fall aslp when we were chatting.. cos i realli veri tired le.. lols.. but for awhile nia.. but overall, i enjoyed today's dinner though nt much turn up.. hahas.. hope nxt sat de sentosa outing will be a success.. so far still nt tt bad.. found a few gals to go liao.. hahas..

Hmm.. veri tired liao.. gtg liao.. anyway.. juz nw wasted sia.. nv take phone number from those gals.. cute gals.. my type =x.. hahas.. lols... joking joking.. kk.. end here.. nites..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

Tiring Day~!

Yoz.. today met up wif qing den come work tgt.. normally wun meet liao cos veri troublesome (den also becos i always late den guilty leh.. hahas.. =x).. but today different cos she juz recovered so i asked to meet up.. hahas.. but today see her so energtic.. so i suppose she fully recovered le ba.. hahas.. Anyway.. she is the first person i see who cn be so happy becos she fall sick =.=".. diao lor..

Hmm.. anyway.. today veri tired wor.. cos ytd play game till quite late.. hahas.. initially tot tt today break will be veri long de lor cos gt incubation time.. but hu noes.. today super busy sia.. busy from morning till end of work la.. lols.. but though is busy, but its fun.. hahas.. at least gt things to do.. hahas..

Anyway.. today first time went dark room alone la.. before i go i veri scared sia.. den on my way to the dark room, i saw hoe ching.. he damn bastard.. i tell him i go dark room.. den i scare sia.. den guess wad?? he sae:"u scared arh!! HAHAHAHAH!!"...zzz sia.. he still laugh so loud lor.. malu sia.. >.<".. but heng arh.. when go in dark room, gt ppl inside =P.. hahas.. i am nt alone.. hahas.. but.. haf a feeling tt i may hav to go dark room alone tml >.<.. sian..

Hmm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. tired sia.. haven train for tml's CO also.. shit.. haf to go train nw.. hahas.. hope everything is better for mi everyday cos i have been totally defeated liao.. i wanna stand up!! hahas..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

Movie Day~

yoz.. today went out wif vin, clem, yong and wz to watch movie.. Initially still gt lester de.. but he last min canot.. den nv contact us somemore wor.. kuku.. hai wo men waste time waiting for his msg..

Today we watch [Step Up 2].. i nv watch Step Up 1 before.. so dunno whether gt link anot.. but i managed to understand the whole movie.. Though i nt a dancer.. but i kinda love seeing ppl do break dance.. so cool man.. but too bad.. i cant do it.. hahas.. but this movie quite nice.. i kinda enjoy throughout the whole movie.. hahas..

Kinda enjoy the outing today... hahas.. again nxt time.. but sorry guys for somethings i did juz nw.. psps... but nxt time when we go out.. pls dun aim mi le leh.. veri sian leh.. keep aiming mi for years le lor.. buay sian arh.. i hear liao also sian sia.. hahas.. giv mi yi tiao sheng lu walk pls.. hahas..

Hmm.. haven do my logbook wor.. i better go do nw.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. anyway.. i will be changing my template soon.. juz tt nw too lazy to.. hahas.. cya..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-12T02:19:00.000+08:00

SUAY DAY~!

Yoz.. today veri bad luck sia.. morning actually meeting qing.. but she suddenly sms sae she will be late.. den ask mi go first if i wan to.. i reach bb mrt at about 805 like tt.. den initally wanna giv her a "surprise" de.. but hu noes.. she reach slightly earlier.. when i waited till 815 den i noe she go le =.=".. sadded.. no fate.. lols.. den somemore today de train super packed la.. heng i sqquueeezzzeee in.. den nv late.. lols.. hope nxt time will haf fate.. hahas..

Den today in lab.. veri sian.. i anyhw touch equipments den kenna scolded >.<".. actually nt scolded la.. juz kena sae nt to touch.. super sian lor.. den my mood was like... Super duper ultimately desperately DOWN!! HAIZ... sian lor.. guess i realli need to be super serious the moment i step into the lab liao!! yea!! i will be SUPER SERIOUS!!

Den nt onli tt lor.. today went into the dark room wif aaron.. den when developing films.. i kinda saw and feel something veri weird.. OMG la.. freaky sia >.<".. i will nv go into the dark room myself le!! even if i have to.. i will make sure i keep on and off the lights.. haiz.. when one is suay arh.. anything cn happen.. Shit.. i am getting freaked out liao X.X...

Erm.. today is actually veri suay.. den tt aaron suggested mi dun go CO.. he sae something bout final destination >.<".. like cursing mi lyk tt.. but i still went CO and i didnt regret goin!! hahas.. Before CO, my mood is down.. After CO, i am super happy!! hahas.. cos today in CO, i finally cn play those notes le!! hahas.. finally.. hahas.. den somemore.. i kinda hav those feelings which i hav in pri sch again le.. hahas.. (cos i pri sch is in band.. den the music feeling is back!).. somemore.. the ppl in CO veri good also.. all treat mi kinda good.. willing to teach mi somemore.. hahas.. so touched.. hahas.. i will be a good drummer.. i will work hard!! hahas..

Think tt's the end of today's post ba.. kinda tired le.. tml still gt work.. i am gonna be SERIOUS!!
Argh!! hahas.. cya..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

I Screwed my Experiment again =x..

Yoz.. ytd i super duper tired and busy.. so nv blog.. cos wz n clem came my hse ton during sat for Bball.. and we played all the way and dota all the way.. hahas.. den initally plan to go for PT den go for IT fair on sun de.. but hu noes.. on sun.. they slp till 3pm den wake up sia.. haiz.. hai wo miss another PT.. i realli wanna go de lor..

Hmm.. today work veri busy wor.. week 1, we do 1 western blot.. week 2, we do 2 western blot.. today, we did 3 western blot.. but we screwed up >.<".. hahas.. today den we found out tt we have been doin something veri wrong la.. WE FORGOT TO DENATURE THE PROTEINS BEFORE RUNNING THE SDS-PAGE!! no wonder we gt no bands all the way la.. but nvm.. nw we learn our mistake.. hahas.. no mistake = no lesson learnt ma.. hahas.. hopefully we wun disappoint my supervisor again.. hope to giv him good results..

Hmm.. today, my guppies gave birth again.. hahas.. this time is a cross-breed.. red eyes guppies.. hahas.. so happy sia.. last time i rear fishes was like zzz de.. all die.. but nw diff le hor.. i gt learn aquaculture one hor.. hahas.. Hmm.. "nw my "family" has gonna larger.. Time to work harder!!".. hahas.. This phrase copy from the game [Harvest Moon] de.. hahas..

K la.. think i shall end here.. i am super tired.. Tml another round of busy-ness.. cos we screwed up today's experiment so everything accumulates.. hahas.. Hope cn get good results..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-07T20:20:00.000+08:00

Tired.. Sian.. Bad Day..

yoz.. today is a super tiring day sia >.<".. Start work at 8.45am den end work at 6.35pm.. though in between gt incubation time to rest.. but i used it to play PSP.. den end up my eyes super tired nw..

Hmm.. today veri guilty sia.. haiz.. initially still tot will end at 6.00pm la.. tt's y i ask qing to wait.. but hu noes.. i end onli at 6.35pm.. zz.. so sorry sia.. realli feel so guilty la.. let her wait so long =.=".. sian.. Den juz nw on the way home.. actually wanna sae treat her to something so as to thank her for lending mi PSP and also for her to wait for mi so long de.. but dunno hw to sae sia.. kinda paiseh.. den end up.. sae lots of damn crap out >.<".. sian lor.. den end up feeling more guilty >.<".. zzz... SiAN!!!

Today actually wanna play bball de.. long time no play.. lost touch le sia.. but hu noes.. everyone so busy.. sian lor.. haiz.. hopes dashed again.. argh.. lets hope nxt week wun be the same.. I realli miss the feeling of bball le la.. canot.. this weekend muz go play liao!

Hmm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. realli super tired sia.. my eyes cn hardly open liao.. but fri leh.. if juz go slp very wasted leh.. ARGH!! sian!! bad day~

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

Tired Tired Tired...

yoz.. so fast thurs le wor.. lols.. end of the week soon.. hmm.. today during work, kinda slack.. cos gt a tok wif Dr Ong n Mr Mak.. den this tok took us about 1 hr.. hahas.. den also.. today nth much to do also.. kinda gt alot of time to slack.. hahas.. i am becoming a slacker soon =(..

Hmm.. today went to CO.. kinda sian lor.. initially go is expected to be training de.. but today combine training.. den no chance to train at all.. sian.. i realli hope to be better lor.. i wanna be a good drummer!! hmm.. dunno y.. i now kinda love my attachment life sia.. maybe becos.. hahas.. vin shld noe y.. hahas.. Anyway.. realli dun wish to go back to sch sia.. especially at the thought of having so many modules to deal wif.. argh.. sian lor.. Hope attachment dun end so fast =X..

Think tt's the end of today ba.. kinda tired le.. tml still gt work.. hahas.. nites..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Time to let go~

hmm.. after wad happened ytd.. it realli took mi sometime to fall aslp.. but nt as bad as the past le la.. hahas.. err.. still kinda a little little little litte bit of sad.. hahas.. but dunno y.. still managed to maintain my smiles throughout my work wor.. but anyway.. thx aaron.. u realli make my day through work today.. cant be any happier den tt liao.. but u realli shocked mi.. u r such a crapper too la.. lols..

Hmm.. didnt realli think much bout it.. maybe becos i expected tt.. or becos my heart already long shattered liao.. den making it into dust makes no diff ba.. or both.. hahas.. Erm.. today work actually quite busy.. but managed to arrange my time in such a way tt we still haf hrs and hrs of break due to incubation in between.. i so li hai hor? =P..

Erm.. ytd i gave ting my blog's link.. cos i also dunno hw to tok to her on msn.. hmm.. but dunno if she has seen it.. hmm.. nvm la.. see or no see actually nt much diff la.. i am juz nt the one.. hahas.. Anyway.. sorry vin.. ytd kinda throw my temper on u =(.. sorry T_T.. but anyway.. wad u sae is rite la.. no point la.. hahas..

I sad, it is still the fact tt its the end.. I happy, its still the fact tt its the end.. Y nt juz be happy?? Sad also 1 day.. happy also 1 day.. y nt juz live my life happily?? Wif her, life goes on.. without her, life also goes on.. so it doesnt make a diff.. hahas..

zuo bu liao couple.. zuo frens ye nt bad..
zuo bu liao frens, zuo stranger abit sad..
zuo bu liao stranger, zuo enemy den jiu beri bad..
hahas..

HealingIcez (i am a priest =P)
hAnMing~

2008-03-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

A moment of truth ba..

today is juz another day.. today.. my 2nd day to CO.. kinda learn quite somethings.. guess its one of my motivation in life ba.. hahas..

Hmm.. juz now saw wei ting's blog.. think is she purposely unlock for mi to see ba.. hahas.. great timing.. and i also guess she saw my blog le.. but nvm.. u realli slam mi hard this time.. hahas.. u realli got mi hurt.. super hurt.. but nvm.. i dun blame u.. i am the one who wanna step into it at the start..i cn blame no one.. wad i fear the most has happened..

But anyway.. i long sensed tt ting like ws le.. den even my sis saw also think tt way.. all my frens sae ting has a changed of heart le.. i do feel so.. but i keep telling myself "NO".. ting is nt tt kinda person who will have a change of heart so easily.. den i still thinkin tt maybe u juz wanna settle down first b4 goin into relationship.. den i even plan tt after ur OIAP i will chase u again.. hahas.. hw naive of mi..

When mi n ting broke off.. i have nv stopped hugging onto tt hope of patching.. truthfully, even till nw, i am still hugging onto tt hope.. no one believes tt.. but seriously.. i fall too deeply in love wif u.. but its one-sided.. alot of my frens sae tt i am stupid.. keep askin mi nt to hug onto this kinda hope le.. is useless.. i am juz a fool.. but jess once told mi tt.. "as long as u think u r doin the right thing, juz folo ur heart..no one has the right to call u stupid".. these words realli motivate mi to conti waiting.. i have been following this broken heart of mine to get my heart even more shattered.. now its all shattered into dust.. it cn nv be seen.. my heart is as good as dead..

Guess this is realli the time for mi to let go le ba.. lets hope i cn.. i must.. let go of u... I realli feel like crying.. seriously.. i wanna cry.. but i cant.. my tears juz keep holding back.. PLS!! let my tears flow.. let this be the last time i cry becos of u... Let this be.. let this be.. the last time...

Anyway, ting.. i know u feel lonely.. u need someone to care for u.. i know tt my 1000 words is nt even worth his 1 word.. even though i am nobody to u..i am juz an insignificant figure to u.. but i juz wanna let u noe tt.. even if the whole world turns against u.. i will still be standing by u.. forever.. Anyway.. jiayou ba.. go for ur love.. i wish the 2 of u happiness..

Shattered-brokenIcez
hAnMing~

2008-03-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Busy WoRk~!

Yoz.. today met up wif qing for work as usual.. neh neh.. nan de i went out early by 2 mins.. den still late.. zzz.. but nvm.. at least learnt something.. monday muz be super early!! hahas..

Hmm.. today work beri beri busy wor.. hardly have any breaks sia.. even my lunch also from 2 hrs become 1/2 hr.. zzz..even though busy but it is enjoyable.. hahas!! Today screw the SDS-PAGE again.. but this time diff.. cos this time i learnt my lesson.. now den i realise tt all these while we screwed up becos of my mistake.. lols.. but i learnt liao.. no more nxt time!! hahas.. hope so..

=> a successful gel =D

Hmm.. even though busy, but managed to clear my stuffs at ard 5pm.. den gt 1 hr break before offwork.. hahas.. den mi n aaron went loitering ard proteos.. hahas.. from Proteos walk to genome, to chromos and etc.. hahas.. den on our way.. we took some photos as we r veri bo liao.. den tt aaron keep sayin mi siao de.. hahas.. maybe too high liao.. cos i first time come these places ma.. hahas.. but kinda fun.. i wonder if anyone saw us.. if anyone saw.. sure malu liao.. hahas.. lets hope nt =P..

=> mi at genome i think =x

=> aaron at skybridge

=> mi and aaron at skybridge

Think tt's the end of today's post ba.. tml still need wake up early.. even earlier than today.. cos qing saes wanna go earlier if nt she PS mi liao >.<".. so evil lor~! =P.. anyway.. juz nw chat wif ting on msn.. den noe tt its veri cold over there.. haiz.. kinda worry sia.. juz hope tt everything is fine and safe for her over there.. kk.. i go slp le..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-03-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

Bon Voyage~

Yoz.. today morning ting is going for her OIAP liao.. her flight is at 8am.. Actually i realli miss her and realli wanna go so tt cn see her.. but i eventually didnt.. Is not becos i cant wake up or cant find ppl to acc mi go.. Its juz becos i couldnt find the courage to face her.. * i am such a coward :( * But nvm.. i kinda worried bout her safety.. haiz.. i juz hope tt everything is fine for her over there..

Anyway.. today also went to Xl's hse wif yong to get some games.. hahas.. i got back the GTA.. this time i am gonna complete this.. hahas.. hmm.. juz finished my logbook for the first week.. dunno whether i did the rite thing wor.. lets hope i did.. hahas..

Err.. i dunno wad more to write liao wor.. too tired to think liao.. aiya.. think i will juz end the post here.. anyway.. ytd went shopping wif yong to bugis and brought some nice shirts.. spend about 70-80 dollars.. but i love the shirt veri much.. hahas.. so is worth it :).. hmm.. kk.. lets juz end here.. tml still gt work wor.. 9am >.<"..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

SCREWED!!..

Y0z.. today fri.. Last day of work for the week.. so shiok.. hahas.. hmm.. today in work quite screwed up.. went there at 9am.. den straight do the cell disruption.. den folo by SDS PAGE.. do halfway.. my supervisor tell us tt we do wrong le.. zzz.. so screwed la.. den my supervisor was like "haiz" >.<".. die liao.. den my supervisor sae nvm.. sae we redo on mon.. i feel so bad sia.. sian.. hope this is the last time i screw things up.. no more nxt time!! in the end, we gt 3 hrs break.. actually today should be quite busy de.. but becos things got screwed den end up nth to do liao.. sian lor.. kinda wasted the whole day..

Hmm.. today lunch, met up wif jess and her fren.. den we went to some market for lunch.. lols.. i realli broke liao.. so no choice.. den jess asked mi whether tml goin for ting's concert wor.. actually i wanna go so cn see her.. but.. i am nt invited by her.. so scared tt if i go, i am gonna spoil her mood.. somemore she goin oversea tml night.. realli dun hope to affect her.. juz hope she is happy nia.. haiz.. kinda in a dilema nw.. hoping for some ppl to give mi advice.. hahas.. but anyway.. speaking bout her OIAP, i am kinda worried sia.. haiz.. i guess i will be praying for her safety everyday..

hmm.. actually wanna play bball de.. but vin sick.. so didnt organise.. anyway, vin.. take care arh.. And dun take another puff hor!! Anyway.. juz added some new fishes into my tank.. hahas.. and also.. tt 2 murder i send away liao.. knn.. ate another 2 of more fishes la!! haiz.. but i nt so bad to kill them.. so juz send them off.. hahas..

Tink tt's the end of today's post ba.. hope tml will be better..

Icez
hAnMinG~!

2008-02-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

My Baby Guppies~..

Yoz.. today 3rd day of work.. i got my logbook ytd.. hehex.. den managed to copy lots of protocols in it le.. hahas.. so nxt time dun realli need to blog much bout my work liao xD.. Anyway.. today work nt bad la.. quite alot of things to do den quite fun.. time also pass super fast..

Today also went to dark room 3 times.. still as scary leh.. lols.. but this time more daring.. mi n aaron(A SP friend of mine) went in to develop the films and we talk bout eerie stories in there... lols.. is super scary lor.. lols..

Hmm.. today finish things quite fast so ended at 5.30pm.. but i good fren.. so i waited for the rest =D.. hahas.. BTW!!! My guppy give birth sia!! WOW!!.. i was so shocked when i received a phonecall from my bro saying tt the fish give birth.. lols.. i noe guppy giv birth veri easily.. but when i do fish spawning in sch.. none of the fishes giv birth to small fry lor.. so disappointing la.. realli nv expect my own fishes to giv birth.. woo!! hahas.. Now i gt 6 small guppies liao.. realli scared they die sia.. but i will do my best to make them survive and grow!! xD..

=> my baby guppies

Hmm..tt's the end of today's post ba =D.. going downstairs soon to pay bills >.<".. After tt goin slp le.. tml 9am wor.. hahas..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

Work Work Work~~

Yoz.. today my second day of attachment liao.. hahas.. And as expected, things were much more interesting le.. i managed to do more hands-on work le.. hahas xD..

hmm.. today during my attachment, i did a cell disruption, immunoprecipitation, western blotting. In between i also did a DNA digestion.. hahas.. The immunoprecipitation is kinda different from wad we learn in school.. so kinda attended a new lesson today =D..

=> immunoprecipitation

( using a magnetic isotope)

hmm.. today lunch also better le.. lols.. things were nice and most importantly, i wasnt CONNED!! lols.. hmm..sorry for mi to keep blogging bout my work thingy.. cos nth much to blog anyway.. lols.. and also, i need to submit my weekly report.. so muz blog out so to help on the report xD.. hahas.. psps..

Hmm.. tt's all for today ba.. lets hope tml will be better.. going to slp soon =D..

Icez

hAnMing~

2008-02-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

My first day of Attachment~!

Yoz.. today first day of work for my IAP.. hahas.. at first still kinda look forward to it wor.. but go there kinda boring sia.. lols.. maybe its first day tt's y nth much to do.. anyway.. today see them run western blotting.. in between gt 1 and half hrs break sia.. den is my free time.. so shoik.. hahas..

Anyway.. today lunch time tio conned sia.. went to eat malay rice.. den is like wtf lor.. onli 3 items plus rice den $5.20 liao.. knn.. daylight robbery lor.. sian.. den somemore the food little little nia.. den so spicy and nt nice de.. argh!! wasted my money.. i am nv gonna go back there again!!

Err.. juz nw also went to visit the dark room sia.. they use tt room to develop those x-ray films de.. den hor.. so scary lor.. especially when my partner off the light.. Is all dark den onli left the red light lor.. scary sia.. kinda reminds mi of the movie "shutter".. eeee.. think of tt makes mi get goosebumps sia >.<".. cant imagine i go into tt room and develop the film myself.. OMG!! >.<"..

Hmm.. think tt's all for wad happen today ba.. hmm.. anyway.. maybe i will be putting wad i did during work in my blog so tt when i do my attachment de report is easier.. if tt's the case den my blog will be so long liao.. lols.. but anyway.. is juz MAYBE nia.. yea maybe.. nt confirm.. hahas..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

Grandpa's Birthday~!

Yoz.. here i am bloggin again.. hahas.. hmm.. juz nw went to my grandpa's hse to hav buffet to celebrate his birthday.. but it was kinda boring cos i see alot of new faces.. lols.. den somemore, i am super tired la.. didnt catch much slp juz nw after coming back home.. so went my grandpa's hse to catch some nap.. hahas..

hmm.. tml is my first day of IAP liao.. kinda look forward to it.. hope everything will be fine.. Hope tt i wun screw up anything during my first day of work.. and also hope tt the things we will be doing there is interesting so tt time cn pass faster.. hahas.. hmm.. i going to slp le.. Super tired nw and somemore, tml need to wake up early.. anyway, there goes my 3 days of rest >.<"..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-24T11:29:00.000+08:00

Once Again.. Our Outing!!
(actually is 24 feb already.. but dunno y the date write 23 feb.. lols)

Yoz.. here i am updating again.. hahas.. hmm.. juz reach home so no time update wad happen ytd.. so i update nw.. hahas..

ytd went out wif my buddies (vin, yong, clem, leo, wz, sb, nazz and mi) to bugis.. initially wanna watch jumper.. den vinny dun wan.. den wanna watch the eye.. den no suitable time slot.. den wanna watch ah long and L.. but some watch le.. zzz.. we like stuck thr discussing for a veri veri long time la.. in the end den decided to watch L.. haiz.. a bunch of guys acting like a group of sissy like tt.. (but not mi =P)
Err.. i forgot to exclude another person.. tt person is vin.. he(or shld i sae SHE) n mi excluded in tt bunch of sissy cos she already girl le.. is normal for girl to act girly =D..

Hmm.. though i didnt watch death note 1 and 2.. but i still managed to understand wad the story is tokin about.. hahas.. in my opinion, i think this show nt bad.. quite nice.. hahas.. After tt, we went to eat our dinner..

hmm.. but this is nt the end of our outing wor.. after dinner, we all went to clem's hse to taunt.. finally i gt a laptop to play wif.. hahas.. We were like playing dota all the way till nw.. hahas.. kinda fun but also tiring for mi.. but i realli enjoyed myself hanging out wif u guys and crapping all the way.. (although i am always the one getting shoot >.<") hahas.. more outings pls!! =D hmm.. anyway.. there is a period of time ytd when i gone emo a little.. sorry bout tt.. i am juz sad and disappointed.. its nt becos i am jealous cos she invited u all.. but is juz becos she didnt even invited or ask mi T_T.. lols.. i am being a failure again =x.. hmm.. no matter wad.. i enjoy overall and tt's it!! hahas.. nw i am super tired.. cmi liao.. i go orh orh le.. MorningZ..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

Exams are OVER!!

Yoz.. i finally update liao.. many many days nv blog liao.. cos recently veri veri busy with preparation of End of Year exam.. psps.. but nvm..hahas.. cos i am back!! HAHAHAH!

Hmm.. today is the last paper liao.. woo.. so shoik.. hahas.. finally cn enjoy 3 days of break.. cos IAP starts on 25 feb >.<".. the sch shld at least give us 2 weeks break ma.. haiz.. but nvm.. i am gonna enjoy these 3 days break.. haha.. Anyway.. between this period when i nv blog, i gt a fish tank!! hahas.. tt fish tank initally was mine.. but tt time when i nv rear fish den giv to my uncle.. nw i gt it back.. hahas..

=> Murders!!
These 2 crayfish ate my fishes in front of mi!! zzz
(but in the end.. they were isolated!!)

=> my tank.. but nw gt change the arrangements abit liao.. hahas..

Hmm.. btw.. she is going for her OIAP soon.. wish her good luck.. i will be praying for ur safety everyday.. :)

Think tt's the end of this post ba.. DUN sae i didnt update hor!!! hahas...

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-09T18:09:00.000+08:00

I HATE MYSELF~!!

Previously i was still hoping for CNY to come.. Today is onli the 3rd day of CNY.. most ppl will be doing hse-visit.. i done mine too.. but things were juz so sucky..

haiz.. ppl have been saying tt when u go poly, is impossible to find ur true fren.. den some ppl even sae tt we shld be careful cos poly haf alot of backstabbers and etc.. but i nv believed tt.. i believe tt we can find true frens too in poly.. but things juz dun turn out lyk this.. i realli hate this.. SERIOUSLY.. little or none of the frens in poly can give mi the happiness tt my sec frens can..little or none of them cn understand mi as well as my sec frens.. sorrie if i offended those poly frens of mine who seen this.. but seriously.. this is hw i feel.. sorry..

i realli hate this lor.. some ppl may realli wanna be fren wif u.. some juz wanna make use of u.. i am realli getting more and more confused.. i realli dunno hw to differentiate liao lor.. haiz.. Maybe this is juz my thinking ba.. maybe i am juz too oversensitive ba.. cos last time i also like tt.. i keep feeling tt she is making use of mi tt's y she is wif mi.. haiz.. it took mi a very long time.. is onli when we separate den i finally begin to understand abit tt things aint like this.. haiz.. since i touched on this.. i shall go on more ba..

Some things have been kept in my heart for a long time.. but i didnt expect today to be the day to sae it out.. To be frank.. i have tried veri hard to let go.. but i cant and i haven.. i still miss her veri much.. i even haf a thinking of waiting for her another 1 yr.. wait till she settle down den maybe see hw.. but den.. aiya.. i dunno.. let fate decide ba.. sometimes.. i realli hope she is wif mi.. juz like juz nw.. hw i hope she is wif mi to console mi.. Everytime when i am sad or down.. she is always thr wif mi.. now, i am all alone.. i realli hate this.. i dun wan things to be like tt.. i hate being alone.. i hate being myself nw.. Seriously when i gave her tt letter.. i forced myself to do tt.. i tot i can do it.. but i cant.. things juz hurts after tt.. all these while i have been forcing myself.. and i hate this.. it is tiring.. i am sick of all this.. haiz.. all the things are juz so screwed.. haiz.. brothers.. i noe tt after seeing all these, u guys will be veri disappointed in mi.. u guys may even be looking down on mi and think tt i am useless.. cos till nw i still cant let go of her.. but is okie.. i noe and i understand..i am juz a failure..

anyway.. i am going out soon.. hope wadever tt happens ltr will make mi happier ba..

BrokenIcez
hAnMing~

2008-02-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

CNY coming~!!

Yoz.. Today is totally slack de wor.. lols.. went for the IAP briefing juz nw.. den kinda looked forward to my IAP sia.. hahas.. come to speaking of IAP, i heard from frens tt weather in china kinda bad.. so kinda worry for.. hmm.. u all noe wad i mean.. hahas.. but realli hope tt the weather will become better.. Be it IAP or OIAP, hope everything turns out fine for all of us.. hahas..

hmm.. juz nw went to vinny de blog.. den i was like wow.. his blog was like advertisement for CNY liao sia.. all CNY song.. den blog also tok bout CNY de.. hahas.. make mi so look forward to CNY sia.. hahas.. anyway.. my throat hao le.. muahahahaha.. BA GUA!!! hahas.. but still gt abit of cough.. nvm.. wait.. soon i will be fully recovered le.. hahas.. realli wanna eat n drink alot.. and also get HAO BAO!!! hahas..

Hmm.. tml still gt IMM pract.. i better go study it nw.. den i cn enjoy CNY le.. muahahaha.. vin.. see la.. becos of u.. i am in new year mood liao.. lols..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

GooD MooD~!

Yoz.. today hiong sia.. BIF test and also aqua pract test.. BIF ex wor.. 40% nia >.<".. hahas.. anyway.. today actually wanna wake up at 5am revise aqua de.. but who noes.. i 6.30 den wake up =.=".. but heng managed to revise finish..

Anyway.. today de paper is super tough la zzz... the BIF paper still not tt bad.. at least gt some confident.. but tt aqua paper is totally cmi lor.. lols.. super tough.. i think the whole class also cmi sia.. lols.. but.. dunno y leh.. i shld by right feel sad wor.. but dunno y.. i by left feel quite happy leh.. maybe nt becos of the test ba.. hahas.. maybe the test nt tt bad.. is juz normal.. lols..

Anyway.. today quite happy.. cos BIF is finally over!! my team and i finish the last piece of BIF assignment liao.. hahas.. so happy.. finally sia.. anyway.. thx alot team.. initially realli sorry to haf an internal conflict wif u all.. but after all.. i feel tt we make a good team =D.. hahas..

hmm.. my fever seems to subside liao.. no more le =D.. den my sore throat also better le.. cough also better alot le.. CNY also coming le.. hahas.. suddenly feel tt i am getting closer and closer to eating my BA GUA le!! hahas.. the moment i recover, i am gonna eat u up!! muahahaha.. anyway.. thx to those who care for mi all these while.. xD

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-02-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

SICK SICK SICK..~

Yoz.. i am still sicked.. haiz.. sian.. 6 more days to CNY lor.. seems tt i cant eat my BA GUA liao.. T_T.. haiz.. sian.. ytd didnt managed to slp cos i needa chiong finish my immun papers.. is damn tired de lor.. dunno y leh.. my fever lyk keep coming back at nite.. and the sore throat juz wun go away.. argh.. i am realli feeling so terrible.. sometimes i realli hope tt someone would be thr to dote on mi.. and take care of mi especially now.. haiz.. Juz hope my fever and sore throat will quickly go away,best before CNY, so tt i cn be back to normal and eat my BA GUA..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Feeling SICK and terrible..T-T ~

Yoz.. Today veri veri hiong for mi wor.. my fever from abit to quite serious liao.. zzz.. den my sore throat is serious dao buay tahan liao.. now i dun even dare to swallow my saliva la.. so pain lor T_T.. Some more i still coughing like hell sia.. haiz.. feeling so terrible.. Somemore, Chinese new year coming soon le.. haiz.. den nw still sick.. dunno whether can get well before CNY ma.. Hope i can cause i wanna eat lots n lots of BAGUA!!! muahahaha!! anyway.. today kinda settle some things le.. but once again.. if u hate mi and dun wan mi as ur fren.. i also realli cant do anything.. but hope tt wun happen.. Anyway, exams also coming soon le.. i need to chiong le.. RAWRZ!!

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

Bad Day ..

Ytd whole day no slp again.. haiz.. becos of the CCTA quiz today la.. =.=".. but heng, the ccta paper today kinda noe hw to do everything.. so nv sacrifice my slp for nth =D.. anyway.. today kinda sux lor.. My BIF project is like stuck in the middle la.. >.<".. realli dunno hw to proceed lor.. wad is worst is i gt no lappy!! .. den cant help a shit at home sia.. so sian.. haiz.. i need a laptop !!! ARGH!!.. haiz.. today veri sian.. offend a person again.. haiz.. guess if i dun change tt particular characteristic of mine, i am gonna offend more ppl sia >.<"... Argh!! i muz control myself.. haiz.. To the person who i offended: " wadever tt i wanna sae, i type in tt msg le.. wad u wanna do nxt i cant control.. frens or not? u decide.. "

*dun ask mi more of this cos i wun ans..*

Haiz.. today is screwed up de.. and now i am feeling so tired and terrible lor.. having a bad sore throat, cough plus abit of fever >.<".. but who cares?? haiz.. i realli need my slp nw.. Hope everything turns out well from tml onwards..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

Tiring Day~

Yoz.. juz came back from bball.. hahas.. juz nw went bball wif nazz, vin, hy, my bro, wz, clem and lester at blk 268.. i am super tired la.. den somemore, juz nw play and i hurt my fingers and my small little toe la.. pain sia.. T_T..

today gt MMB test.. den i was lyk last min revision last night lor.. zzz.. in end, i nv slp la.. haiz.. tired sia.. but luckily managed to finish revising wadever is needed to noe.. First time revise b4 exam till nv slp sia.. at first still thought i will black out cos b4 the test, i am realli tired and i cant think.. But heng arh.. when go into the exam lecture hall, i kinda on form =P.. so managed to do quite well i suppose =x.. hahas..

i am realli realli tired now sia.. But, i realli realli wanna dota wif my vin they all =P.. hmm.. guess i will go 1 or 2 rd den go slp ba.. tml still need wake up early to do BIF project.. zzz.. hmm.. think i will end here ba.. Wad a tiring day.. Oh Gosh~ >.<"..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

I am so dead T_T .. ~

Argh... juz haf my jap speaking test la.. haiz.. its so screwed up lor.. i spend the whole night to revise jap ytd lor.. but when come to sch.. den i noe tt i didnt focus on the right thing la >.<".. haiz.. when go in the test room, i was lyk STONED =.=".. my partner was like tryin to hint mi la.. den the teacher tell her to stop giving mi ans.. haiz.. i so nervous until my partner also loss of words lor.. haiz.. this time realli screwed up liao.. ARGH~ SIAN~~~

Haiz.. tml still gt mmb test.. now becos of jap no mood liao sia.. haiz.. i dun wanna screw my mmb paper tml lor.. haiz.. sian.. T_T..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

Presentation~!!

Yoz.. Today finally presentation for CCTA liao.. wtf lor.. i wanna do the slides on mon nite de.. but who noes, reach home on com den fall aslp liao =.=".. end up nv do lor.. heng today got 4 hrs break arh.. den gt time chiong finish.. is damn tired de lor..

But realli veri dulan sia.. my team gt 3 ppl including mi.. den veri kns de lor.. my teammates dun do much things de lor.. i machiam lyk solo sia.. the gal still gt do abit.. but tt damn guy in my team is an asshole lor.. guess wad?? when i doin the presentation slides during the 4hrs break myself, tt damn guy was playing games beside mi la.. KNN Sia.. realli my luck to haf such a teammate lor.. SUAY!!!
haiz.. dun wan say bout this liao.. ARGH!!

BioReactor made by my team =D

Anyway.. i realli kinda confused sia.. wad is like?? when u veri close to tt person = u like tt person?? When u feel veri comfortable talkin to tt person = u like tt person?? Argh.. so confused bout this lor.. >.<".. haiz.. maybe i shld juz avoid her so tt my mind will be clear ba..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

AQuA.... sIaNzZz~!!

Yoz.. today went sch to do project.. aqua project -.-" .. have been working on it since holiday till now lor.. still haven finish sia.. zzz.. actually intended to finish everything today including the powerpoint de.. but hu noes.. my teammate didnt do his part la.. wtf.. den all the things lyk so general lor.. knn.. end up onli finish part of it la.. haven even start powerpoint lor.. so screwed up sia >.<.. hope tml meet up cn finish all.. if nt die.. monday presentation.. After tt, mi n yong went to bugis de Sim Lim square to shop for my microSD.. hahas.. went to first shop.. the price was like $28 >.<.. lols.. but at 2nd shop found one $18 de.. hahas.. lazy to find somemore le.. so bought a screen protector and a microSD thr.. lols.. yong funny sia.. he wanna buy 1 4Gb de microSD la.. he ask the salesman.. den the salesman tell him $89.. his face was like startled.. LOLS.. end up he still bought one 2Gb de.. nt bad la.. $30 nia.. lols.. Hmm.. think tt's the end of today's post ba.. need to go chiong my aqua liao.. if nt tml gg again.. lols.. Hope everything turns out fine.. HUAT ARH =P..

Icez
hAnMing~

Fri 18 Jan 2008
Basketball RuleZ~!!

Yoz.. actually wanna post ytd de.. but my com screwed up den cant go on9 =.=" so cant post.. haiz.. anyway.. fri went bball wif vin, wz, hy, my bro, vin's bro, leo, david, shibao.. hahas.. so many ppl sia.. we went there play a couple of full court match.. so fun lor.. so long nv play full court le.. Den after these matches, gt 4 china man wanna play wif us sia.. all bigger size den us lor.. wad is worst is.. these 4 china man look down on us lor.. wtf sia.. they not even strong lor.. fuckers!!.. our team gt shi bao, mi , leo and my bro.. if wan win we cn de lor.. act wad sia.. knn.. NVM.. dun talk bout them le.. the matches were overall fun.. hahas.. but think too long nv run le.. so after all these matches.. both my legs cramp.. now my whole body ache sia.. zzz.. somemore.. my shoe dunno y.. "bite" mi sia.. den gt a cut near my ankle there.. pain sia..

anyway.. before i forget.. sorry vin.. didnt noe u gastric so we play so long.. sorriex..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

NP Open House~

yoz.. today i super blurred sia.. lols.. again blur =.=".. today needa help out in NP open hse.. den need to reach sch at 10.30am.. lols.. i slp on the bus la.. den miss the bus-stop >.<.. i always slp on bus de lor.. but first time miss bus -stop when i goin to sch sia.. so shocked la.. lols.. but heng, still managed to reach sch in time.. hahas.. but anyway.. kinda sian.. cos actually i am kinda nominated to help out as a counsellor during open hse lor.. but when i read the mail, the meeting was like over la.. =.=" super sian.. if go can get free shirt wor!! ARGH.. but anyway, she is involved too.. so dunno whether i didnt go is good or bad.. kinda feel tt heaven is making fun of mi.. >.<"..

Anyway.. today kinda bad luck leh.. when helping out at the open hse thingy for my aqua stuff, the stupid spectrophotometer keep screw things up la.. the power of tt damn machine keep kena cut off.. dunno y.. den need rewarm- up the machine la.. it needs ard 5mins to warm up lor.. wtf sia.. if during tt time gt ppl come in, also dunno wad to do sia.. But heng.. no one come in during tt time.. lols..

Den hor, today gt jap reading test la!! WTF.. teacher didnt mention lor.. and i didnt read!! at first still tot i am dead for sure la.. BUT... heng la.. the paper is multiple choices.. heng the options given mainly straightforward de.. so manage to do most of the qns.. heng la.. for a moment i tot i am gonna screw this up liao.. lols.. Phew..

Anyway.. initially wanna post some photos of the open hse thingy de.. but tt chun yong lor.. ask him help mi take some photos.. he keep sae he shy.. shy wad sia =.=".. haiz.. den end up nv take.. sian.. nvm.. still gt chance ba.. hahas..

Hmm.. tt's end of today post ba.. life is full of surprises.. ytd i cn be emo, today i cn be happy... but tml may be emo again.. but hope wun ba.. hahas.. anyway tml fri.. SO is BBALL TIME!! hahas.. kinda look forward to it.. hahas..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

. . . ~

Yoz.. ytd come home den slp le sia.. first time i sleep more den 8hrs.. hahas.. but i wake up still tired leh >.<" .. y arh?? sian.. den today first lesson tutorial lor.. 11am lesson, i 10am den noe need to do e tutorial la.. wtf sia.. nv do anything go sch sia.. so paiseh lor.. teacher ask qns i also dunno hw to ans sia.. lols.. Today is super sian.. i rather shld i sae.. sad.. Ytd actually call her to ask to meet up cos wanna pass her sth.. she sae see first =.=" .. early morning i still sms her to remind her lor.. den she nv reply.. in the end, she didnt turn up >.<" .. haiz.. i still haf to bring tt sth to her dance room to pass to her personally la.. =.="..
If Ting ever read this post.. this is wad i wanna sae:
Think tt's the end of today's post ba.. hope tml will be better >.<..
juz nw tok to u when i pass u tt sth.. u nv sae much but juz a thank you.. well yes.. we hav broken up and i hav sae tt i have given up.. but seriously.. i haven completely given u up.. dunno y, there still this "dun giv up" feeling in mi.. maybe is juz becos i love u too much ba.. u told mi u hav actually been blocking mi all the way.. for a moment, i tot i will be heartbroken.. but surprisely, i dun haf tt feeling.. maybe i am juz numb or maybe i am used to it.. well, msn is urs.. u wanna block mi, there is nth i can do.. and i respect it.. but seriously.. i believe u dun wanna be fren wif mi ba.. but nvm.. is a loss to mi tt i lost a girlfriend as well as a friend like u.. well.. i noe i did u wrong and was discriminated by ur fren.. but i hope u noe tt i hav realli tried my best to glue back all the broken pieces.. .. ya.. i noe tt no matter hw hard i tried, the damage have already been done and it can nv be treated as nth has happened.. but i hope u understand tt.. the greatest punishment for mi is actually to lose u.. and i have gonna tt and i am realli regrettful of it.. it hurts.. and i realli miss u.. anyway.. these r juz some random tots in my mind which i wanna sae to u.. maybe till the day u see this post, i dun haf tt feeling le.. maybe by tt day, i have already given up totally on u le..
Icez
hAnMing~

Sian..

2008-01-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

TiRed TiRed TiRed.. bUsy BuSy bUsy!!

sian.. today veri veri tired den veri veri sian.. haiz.. sat was veri happy cos brought a new handphone.. 5610 =D.. luv this phone veri much.. hahas..But.. today sux.. becos i brought this new phone.. den i dunno hw to set the alarm.. i set the alarm for sun la >.<".. haiz.. today sux lor.. the alarm didnt rang.. den my grandma didnt wake mi up!!! haiz.. lesson at 9 lor.. i woke up at 9.10.. reached sch at 10am la.. 1 hr late.. WTF !!! haiz.. last week i came 1 hr earlier.. this week i came 1 hr later.. kinda on par le huh?? =.="

This week damn sian lor.. is gonna be damn busy.. all the projects due nxt week.. den tons and tons of work to do.. tons and tons of things to revise.. den still gt open hse thingy.. wa.. gonna be super busy until wanna die liao >.<".. Hope everything is gonna be fine.. Think tt's the end of today's post ba.. post nxt time!! Gonna chiong liao!! ARGH!!

Icez
hAnMing~

Yong's bdae

2008-01-11T23:54:00.001+08:00

Birthday Celebration~!

yoz.. Juz came back home nt long ago.. lols.. Today yong's bdae wor.. dun see him small small size hor.. this brother of mine 19 years old le wor.. hahas..

pics taken at billy bomper..
(from left to right: Emmanuel, wz, vin, hy, mii and alfred)

Fun shot~! =P

Juz now went to Orchard de Billy Bomper with vin,wz, yong and alfred to eat their super big burger.. Damn ex sia.. no matter hw budget i wanna be, also ard $20.. lols.. But is worth it.. cos the food quite nice and most imptly.. is my brother's bdae =D.. After tt, emanuel joined us there.. So long nv see Emanuel and Alfred le lor.. This Emanuel changed alot sia.. become Zai Na liao sia.. lols.. But this Alfred hor.. beside his size become more macho, i dun think gt any change sia.. lols.. still as birdy =P.. i love one phase of yong which is saying in chinese : "being a bird is okie.. but dun keep talking bird language.." LOLS!!

We were realli chatting and crapping alot there and also on our way home sia.. lols..realli enjoy talking PL with my brothers.. lols.. Becos we long time no see Emanuel le.. so when he comes, vin they all keep shoot him la.. lols.. And also thx to him, i was safe and nt shoot-ed by vin.. phew.. lols.. hahas.. It was a great day.. and i realli enjoyed myself.. thanks guys.. And once again, happy birthday Hock Yong xD..

Icez
hAnMing~

2008-01-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

A Confused Mind~ ..

Yoz.. Ytd was a super bad day sia.. after writing the last post, i was kinda "scolded" by my fren la.. sian.. den everything was like my fault.. haiz.. Ytd in sch was already veri screwed up liao.. den my mood was like super bad.. haiz.. den reach home after blogging still have to face these problems.. damn sian la.. zzz.. but at least.. things gt cleared up eventually.. so still nt tt bad although i sae alot of "sorry" >.<.. but anyway.. eliza if u r seeing this post.. i wanna let u noe tt:

Yes! i promised u tt i wun sae a word bout u n him..
but seriously i still feel that u 2 can work out well..
but again.. its up to u to decide..
dun worry.. i will keep my promise..

Today finally dun need go sch at 8am le =D.. Today Jap test sia.. lucky woke up early den gt read thru la.. if nt sure screwed up liao.. lols.. den somemore today still release early la.. lols.. so good~ hmm.. tml yong bdae wor.. still thinking of wad to buy for him sia.. vin suggested kuku present.. hmm.. proper present i gt alot of ideas.. but as for kuku presents.. i seriously dunno a single one of them sia.. lols.. hmm.. nvm.. lets see wad kinda kuku presents i come up wif.. LOLS..

Anyway.. today is 10 Jan 2008 le n she is still blocking mi >.<.. Realli dunno y she chose to block mi lor.. she actually left mi wif 2 paths and i hav actually chosen the path which she wans me to.. she shld be happy ma.. but y she block mi instead sia =.=".. haiz.. i hav been wif her for 2 and a half years before we break.. but i realli wonder wth hav i been doing during this 2 and a half years sia.. how cum i dun seem to understand her a single bit sia.. haiz.. maybe this could be the main reason for the breakup ba.. hahas.. >.<..

Actually plan to call her today to request for tt "something".. but i eventually didnt do tt.. becos deep in my heart.. i was still kinda hoping for a miracle to happen.. hahas.. but well.. as expected.. it didnt happened.. lols.. how silly of mi sia.. till now still hug onto so much hopes.. what a stupid guy am i.. hahas.. hmm.. i think i will juz call her tml and request for tt " something" ba..

We always hope to get what we want
But when we cant,
We will first fight desperately for it
After fighting desperately,
some will succeed but some will fail..
When we have failed,
we still start creating illusions to pretend that we hav got it..
But.. the ultimate fact is that we r actually
walking further.. and further away from what we want..

It hurts to face reality..
But it hurts even more to face reality
after waking up from an illusion..

Dun take things for granted..
Learn to treasure..
Dun learn to treasure only after u hav lost it..

Hmm.. guess thats the end for today's post ba.. hahas.. today's mood is still not bad.. but still tired.. tml lesson 8am again!!.. ARGH!! Sian >.<..

Icez
hAnMing~

A final thank you.. ~

2008-01-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

A Final Thank You~

well.. today wasnt a good day for mi.. went to sch at 7 plus.. reach there at 8am to get lappy.. lesson at 10am la.. damn sian.. ytd nite still slp at 5am lor.. cos watch transformer till 2am den study till 5am.. zzz.. somemore, i hav been goin to sch at 8am for 3 consecutive days le lor!! Wtf sia.. super duper tired.. zzz.. Today de lecture i tried my best to stay focus le.. but after half the lecture, i CMI liao.. >.<.. Den for my practical, i was lyk totally blur blur de lor.. dun even noe wth am i doin.. super sian.. super bad day..

Anyway.. i have thanked my brothers and friends in my previous post.. thr is actually one more person who i realli wanna thank.. it realli took mi alot of courage.. but eventually i called her when ting is nt ard.. and i thanked her.. this time.. she didnt sae much.. neither did she persuade mi to hang on.. well.. i suppose and hope that.. i didnt take a wrong path this time..

But no matter wad, from the day i decided to giv up on her.. i nv wanted to turn back le.. Sometimes, i realli hate it when i have to see certain things which i dun wanna see.. even though i decided to let go of her, but part of my heart is still wif her.. And it still realli hurts to see those things.. I may or may not be able to get back the remainings of my heart from her.. but no matter how the ending may be.. i will do my very best.. to get over this..

I must be strong..

Icez
hAnMing~

Wa... blur blur...

2008-01-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Blur Blur.. ~

Wa.. sian.. today i super sotong sia.. lesson at 9am.. i went to sch at 7.30am, thinking that lesson is at 8am la.. super sian lor.. cn slp 1 more hour de lor.. T_T.. my precious 1 hour sleep.. Not only this lor.. today dunno wad happen.. i walk walk walk also cn trip and fall sia.. =.=".. some more nt onli once lor.. is many many times lor.. zzz.. sian.. feeling so blur and clumsy sia >.<.. Den today in aqua pract, we have to dissect alive goldfishes la.. OMG!! this one nt the onli thing lor.. actually.. we need to dissect sick fishes.. so still not tt bad cause the fishes will eventually die.. but for my team, we chose one blind fish to dissect.. den guess wad? After we dissect, the teacher sae that.. this goldfish is actually veri healthy and will be able to live veri long.. he still sae the fish died becos of us la.. =.=".. realli make us so guilty lor.. sorriex poor little goldfish.. T_T.. gonna get my karma soon >.<..

Haiz.. think tt's all for today ba.. feeling veri feverish now.. haiz.. goin to fall sick soon.. hmm.. tml lesson is 8am.. sian.. better go orh orh now.. hahas.. wish mi good luck.. hope tml i wun be so blur le xD.. hahas..

Icez
hAnMing~

I am back..

2008-01-02T19:06:00.001+08:00

~I am Back~

yoz.. i am finally back blogging.. gone mia for months i think.. well.. actually plan to come back ytd de.. but.. becos of some things which i'm gonna mention ltr, i didnt come back until now..

There are simply so many things which i wanna sae and blog out.. Its been 4 months since i broke wif her.. i hav nv felt any warmth from anyone until weeks before the holiday.. To mi.. i haf been fighting alone all the while until then.. Weeks before the holiday.. i kinda reconcile wif my sec frens and my brothers.. Its till then.. den i realli feel warmth.. finally feel tt there is at least someone who realli cares for mi..

During the previous holiday.. is realli a torture for mi.. i missed her, think alot and do alot.. and also becos of tt.. i make myself even more regrettful.. However.. this 2 weeks of holiday is realli a totally different situation.. unlike the previous holiday, i enjoyed myself alot during this 2 weeks of holiday.. There are 2 significant occasions during this 2 weeks of holiday which realli touched my heart and i die die also muz mention..

Christmas Eve (first occasion) --> 24 Dec 2007

During this day.. i went out wif vin, wz, hy, clem, jess, leo to pasir ris to play.. we haf so much fun together.. after tt, we went to marina to eat steamboat.. Sharyn and sok hwee also joined us during the steamboat.. We chat, joke, fool around and there was so much fun.. but after it was a pity becos leo, sharyn and sok hwee got to go.. kinda sad..

=> a photo taken together
(from the left to right is vin, clem, mi, leo, hy and wz..
jess was missed out as she was the photographer =x)

Leaving behind the 6 of us (wz, vin, hy, clem, jess & me).. we went to jess hse there de playground to tok becos jess's mum suddenly dun allow her to stay overnight.. tt night was realli a night where all of us juz speak out wadever is kept deep in our hearts.. lyk wad vin sae.. some of us cried, some of us laughed at our past.. but no matter wad.. nth is kept in our heart.. well.. that is wad i rmbr for tt nite.. but tt was realli a precious nite.. though tt nite, it was pretty cold.. but the warmth from my fren and brothers reali serve as a thick blanket to my heart.. its a warmth tt i haf nv felt before.. Thanks guys.. i will make sure i arrange this every year..

New year's Eve (second Occasion) --> 31 Dec 2007

During this new year's eve.. i went to east coast wif my classmates (pf, xl, jojo, eliza, cy, yl, aldred).. Mi n eliza came kinda late becos we were toking and toking and toking on the way den kinda dunno where we r..so we r LOST!! >.<.. lols.. at first still tot they will be waiting for us la.. but hu noes.. when we reached there.. they lyk dun giv a damn =.=" .. But after tt, we still managed to join in the fun..

(A photo taken tgt.. but abit blur..)

We went cycling after tt leaving behind yl to look after the things.. i feel so bad sia.. she was lyk waiting there alone for 2 n half hours.. so sorry.. but during this waiting time.. we went cycling together and we were all realli crazy.. pf was lyk singing all the way la.. or rather should i sae.. SCREAMING!! =.=" ... but xl and mi also got join in.. lols.. but reali damn paiseh lor.. especially when we cycle past other people >.<.. anyway.. paiseh is one thing.. but is realli funny.. hahas.. but seriously.. tt was the first time i cycle in east coast lor.. den it was till then.. den i noe tt.. east coast is actually veri BIG.. LOLS.. ps arh.. i frog in the well =x.. After tt.. we pack pack den some went home some went to meet fren.. den eliza was kinda sad tt this outing didnt last tt long.. sorry eliza.. but nxt year i make sure we arrange this again.. so cheers :).. Btw.. thx for ur belated x'mas present..

(we got some of these from eliza for xmas :) )

After tt i went to meet vin, hy and wz at boon lay for countdown.. wow.. didnt noe tt boon lay gt fireworks sia =x.. sorry arh.. i this frog haven come out of the well =P.. After the countdown.. we went toking at hy hse there.. starting was kinda emo.. but after tt.. we tok n crap alot.. den suddenly gt hear a siao kia shouting from 12th floor at a grp of malays.. dunno wad happen.. but we all juz sit there watch show =x.. lols.. we are so bad.. but tt's us =P.. After tt, we went home lor.. walk home sia.. so scary la.. but luckily gt wz accompany mi.. thanx pal..

Well.. tt's all for the 2 special occasion ba.. But no matter wad.. i enjoy myself alot.. thanks to all those who were wif mi all this while.. Is year 2008 now.. my new year resolution was initially hoping that i can do well in my studies, successful in everything i do and may everything be smooth.. i also hope that someday, somehow i can patch back wif her..

However.. this hope was kinda destroyed.. ytd.. i tok to her in msn.. initially, i planned to wait for her ans till 10/1/08.. but.. i decided to ask for her ans ytd.. and i was totally rejected.. The words she sae wasnt veri harsh.. but.. it pierced deep into my heart..i tried to control my tears but i didnt manage to.. it was a tough nite for mi ytd and i finally came to a decision.. I dunno if this decision is rite.. but i guess.. i didnt haf a choice..

she was so perfect even till now.. and she will conti being so perfect in my heart forever.. i am realli regrettful tt i didnt treasure her in the past and leading to a breakup nw.. but i blame no one.. except myself.. .. well.. all this while.. its been a tough route.. i haf been getting hopes and rejections.. maybe.. those hopes are jus illusions created my mi.. perhaps.. she has always wanted things to end this way.. but no matter wad.. i haf reached my limits.. i haf done wadever i can.. though there's still some regrets in mi.. but i guess.. it cant be helped..

Its been 2 and a half years since we were together..
i haf never regretted being together wif u..
u make realise wad is love..
u were the first gal who has realli touched my heart..
u were the first person who is worthy of my tears..
Though its the end for the both of us..
but there will always be a room reserved for u and onli u in my heart..

I changed the lyrics of the song "ONLY LOVE"..
Initially.. i planned to give this song to u.. though it
was onli haf the song.. but i plan to make this a complete
song when we patch back.. but well.. i guess.. its no longer
necessary.. but no matter wad.. this is for u..

~Missing You~
12am
when ur reading this message
i'm all alone
staring at this darkness sky
My mind, My heart is so confused
I dunno wad to do
I'm feeling so lost
I'm missing you
You Are Deep In My Heart
I'm realli missing you
I miss the days
When we spend together
Missing the sweet smiles of yours
I'm missing every single thing of you
I'm missing every moments
I cant control all these misses
Simply because.. ..
I LOVE YOU..

Well.. i haf got some things to sae to my brothers..
u may think tt its veri er xin.. but its realli
the things i wanna sae from the btm of my heart..

Vincent..
we know each other for 5-6 years..there were nth that we
cant tok abt in the past.. but we kinda fall out or
rather shld i sae..i dunno hw to face u.. as a result..
we haf drifted away from each other for years..
but its finally now tt we got together once again..
Though its been so long since we never contact.. but u were still the
one hu realli understand mi the best.. thanks alot buddy..
even though u haf ur own problems
but u nv fail to spare mi time listening to wad i haf to sae..
thanks alot for standing by mi all these while..
ur problems may be complicated..
but i believe.. time can solve it..
Good luck for ur first relationship..

Hock Yong..
we got to know each other since sec 1..
i remember we once quarrelled and it last for 1 year..
but no matter wad it is.. we came back together..
i realli treasure the brotherhood tt we haf now..
Thanks for standing by mi all these while..

Wen Zhong..
We know each other since sec 1 too..
but we werent tt close..
but we did got closer after this incident..
though u didnt giv mi much advices..
but u did lend mi ur listening ears..
To mi.. u r my brother..
thanks for standing by mi all these while too..

Clement..
We know each other since sec 2 thru bball..
though we werent tt close too..
but we also got closer after this incident..
To mi.. u r also my brother..
Thanks for standing by mi all these while too..
i noe u haf ur problems..
To mi.. in relationship,
we may not get wad u sow..
but wadever u do..
i believe it can be clearly seen
by people ard u including her..
i wish u good luck..

Jessica...
we haf known each other for 2 -3 years
though u r nt my brother..
but u r my "zhi xin peng you"
and u will forever be..
thanks for sparing so much time
for mi listening to wadever i haf to sae..
thx for standing by mi all these while and
supporting mi in wadever i do..
I noe u r facing wif a big problem now..
but I seriously believe tt u will be able
to get over this..
no matter wad.. i wanna let u noe tt..
wadever u do.. u have my support..
(ur fav baby blue :) )

Thanks to all my brothers for standing by mi all these while.. promise mi.. promise mi that our
brotherhood will last forever.. promise mi that no matter wad happen.. we will still stand together as one.. promise mi that 10 years down the road.. we will still be together as one..

Brothers Forever~

Hmm.. think tt's the end of my blog for today ba..
Is a brand new year..
May all the bad bad things in 2007 be gone
Lets all welcome 2008 and may all the good good things come~
Cheers~

Icez
~hAnMing~

16 October 2007

2007-10-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today i reach sch and i saw her alighting from the bus.. she was all alone.. she walked alone to her lecture.. when i saw her back view as she is walking away from me.. i cn realli feel the distant between mi and her.. haiz.. realli feel so heartbroken at tt time..

Lessons were fine for mi today.. but i onli saw her 2 times.. the second time i saw her was at emart.. she was lyk goin for lesson.. i was walking behind my frens alone.. she was tokin to her frens.. she did saw us but after tt she conti to tok to her fren.. i realli wonder whether she gt saw mi..

hAiz.. i made a video for her previously to show hw much i love her.. but i gt replies from my frens tt my videos were veri insenitive.. they sae tt my video appears to be implyin tt she is the one tt let mi down.. she is the one tt cause the relationship to break.. haiz.. tt is obviously nt true.. i am the one tt cause the relationship to break.. i am the one tt let her down.. she is a gem.. is juz tt i didnt treasure her..

Haiz.. after hearing their comments.. i realli feel tt.. i am veri insensitive.. i still didnt think of her feelings when i do things.. i realli wanna change.. i am slowly changing.. i am doing best of the best to change..nt juz for her.. but for myself too.. i realli feel veri sad and disappointed.. all the things i wanna do.. the main intention was to make her feel my love.. but things always turns out the opposite.. i realli dunno wad to do.. the more i do.. the more disappointments i giv her.. i realli feel so useless.. besides saddness, wad else cn i giv her?? i realli hate myself for being such a useless guy..

15 October 2007

2007-10-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of sch.. realli hope to see her at the bus-stop.. but did manage to see her.. haiz.. den on my second lecture, i saw her.. at tt time i realli hope she will sit wif mi.. but she didnt.. haiz.. it was realli a disappointment.. (but wad cn i expect?? she already broke wif mi le leh.. impossible for her to sit wif mi le ma.. haiz..)

During the lecture break, i went to tok to her.. haiz.. she didnt even look at mi lor.. haiz.. cn realli feel tt she feels veri awkward to tok to mi.. she seems to be still angry and disappointed wif mi.. i dunno leh.. have a feeling tt she haven let go of mi yet..

During the lecture, i borrowed a timetable from her classmate to print.. haiz.. in the end i didnt do tt.. cos i realli find tt i invading her privacy again.. haiz.. when cn i change.. haiz..

During break.. i saw her.. she was wif her classmates.. i think she saw mi.. but she juz do her best dun look at mi.. haiz.. reali so sad..

After the break.. i have a lecture wif her again.. den i was lyk sitting behind her.. den i gt ask jo to look out whether she gt peek at mi anot.. haiz.. jo sae she juz keep tokin to her frens.. cn see tt she reali happy.. even happier den when she is wif mi.. haiz.. i am realli so sad..

After sch.. i sms to tell her i wanna wait for her.. she didnt reply.. den mi n jo sitting at emart.. jo waiting for chun yong den i waiting for her.. den finally.. i saw her.. dunno y.. during tt time, my heart beat damn fast.. den i fake to slp.. but she approach mi.. den tell mi she go home first.. haiz.. so disappointed.. haiz..

In the end, jo tell mi.. she look at ting and sae bb to her.. but jo sae tt the way ting look at her veri weird.. den suddenly, jo tell mi tt mi n her gt chance.. realli wonder wad sort of feelings did ting gave jo.. haiz.. realli wonder.. whr do i stand in her heart..

I realli wanna change.. i am determined to change.. For u and for myself.. but will u give mi a chance?? till nw, i still dun get a chance to tok to u calmly face to face to settle our problems.. does this means tt u r still confuse wif our relationship?? u dunno whether to reaccept mi?? or izit tt u already given up le.. haiz.. i realli wanna have confident.. but i cant find the confident.. there is juz simply too much disappointment from u.. YES.. i stil love u.. but the pain tt my heart has gone thru is simply too much tt.. it is numb le.. i realli wanna stay happy.. i wanna let u noe tt i am happy.. but i realli cant.. haiz.. when cn i reali smile naturally to u.. i realli dunno hw to face u.. haiz..

14 October 2007

2007-10-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

woo.. blogging again.. hahas.. these few days kinda busy?? tts y didnt blog..

hmm... tml sch reopen le wor.. kinda look forward.. but kinda scare too.. lols.. my feelings nw was lyk.. COMPLICATED.. LOls..

sian.. alot of my modules need lappy sia.. den dunno which bastard stole my lappy le.. nw no lappy.. realli so dead sia.. sian.. den i also gt try to borrow lappy from ting.. but the way she answer mi give mi a feeling tt she is veri reluctant to lend mi her lappy.. haiz.. nvm ba.. i think i shant force her anyway.. i told her i will find my own ways.. lols.. but seriously.. i dunno wad to do sia.. dead.. nvm.. there is one sentence saying.. " when there is a will, there is a way.." nw i will juz walk one step count one step ba.. ( direct translation from chinese =x)

nw goin 12 le.. need slp le.. so tts all ba.. woo.. tml cn see her le.. hahas.. so happy~ cn realli feel butterfly in my stomach.. xD..

I miss you~

9 October 2007

2007-10-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. still feeling veri unwell.. feeling so terrible.. haiz.. really hope cn get her care and concern.. but she dun seems to care T_T.. Haiz.. sch reopening soon.. nw tt my laptop lost le.. nw my gf also gone le.. haiz.. realli a drastic change for mi this sch reopen.. Realli dunno hw to deal wif sch reopen sia.. normally when i stress, she will be there for mi.. nw i am all alone.. no one is gonna help mi.. no one is gonna care bout mi.. I realli feel so scared.. Cn the time juz move backwards??? HAiz.. wad am i gonna do?? T_T

8 October 2007

2007-10-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so sick nw.. first thing when i woke up, i went toliet.. stomachache continuously.. 5th time goin to toilet le.. realli make mi feel so weak and wobbly.. den somemore, dunno wad happen to mi.. my right ear feels so pain.. maybe too heaty ba.. haiz.. my whole body feels so cold and weak.. currently still havin fever.. haiz.. is my onli week to enjoy my holiday le.. and this kinda things happen to mi.. i realli hope someone cn be there to care and concern bout mi nw.. i am feeling terrible.. Someone pls help mi =( ..

7 October 2007

2007-10-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today so bored.. nth to do at home.. so i went to look at her blog again.. After looking at her blog again.. i realli realise tt i am realli a sucky boyfriend in the past.. I cn feel tt she realli feel so stress, sad and lonely.. realli nv see her so emo b4.. haiz.. my heart realli feel so pain.. as if thousands and millions of knifes piercing thru..

Whenever she is stress and sad, she needs my care and concern.. but whenever she contacts mi, hoping to get my care and concern, i didnt give her any.. wad i did was juz to scold her and quarrel wif her.. i nv try to understand hw she feels.. but instead, i expect her to understand hw i feel.. IN end, i juz gave her more and more stress..

I cn realli feel her loneliness.. i cn feel hw hurt she is now.. i dunno whether this is too late.. but before we break, i nv giv her any care and concern.. nw tt we hav broken, i realli wanna giv her all the care and concern i cn.. haiz.. these few days, i realise tt she nv on9.. she muz realli be veri busy wif her dance stuff.. haiz.. hw i wish i cn help her overcome all these stress.. but i noe tt even she feel stress, she will nv turn to mi.. she will juz bottle them up..

During this holiday, i feel tt she is juz running away from this problem.. haiz.. Things will become worst when sch reopen.. she will definitely feel additional stress from sch work.. haiz.. all i cn do nw is juz show her support behind the scene.. i cant even lend her my shoulder when she feels sad.. There are many things tt i wanna do to make her feel happier and less stressful.. i realli wanna let her noe tt she is nt alone, i am always there for her.. haiz.. but there is juz many things tt i cant do nw.. there is juz no chance.. haiz..

It realli breaks my heart to see her so tired and stress wif all her dance stuff.. cn anyone juz tell mi wad i can do?? i realli wanna shoulder her burden.. realli hope to see her happy every single day.. haiz.. but wad shld i do? realli feel so helpless.. sry ting..

I miss you~

6 October 2007

2007-10-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

fri 5 oct was too busy.. den no time blog.. so here i am to blog both fri and sat..

5 October 2007

It was my last day of work.. It was the first time of work where all of us were so slacky.. There is lyk practically nth for us to do sia.. den time pass so damn slow and she juz keeps appearing in my mind.. Juz becos it was practically nth to do, i went to ask chaos (IC) for work.. u noe wad?? he gave mi a mission impossible.. Fancy askin mi to move a cabinet which is taller and heavier den mi myself.. On top of tt, there wasnt any space lor.. den i go tell him it is impossible de.. den guess wad he sae?? " i noe it is impossible tt's y ask u to do.. *grinning* .. Use ur creativity LA .. " Is lyk... WTF lor.. it was my last day and he wanna kill mi =.=".. In the end, i still manage to express my "creativity" to get some of it moved =D .. den he was lyk bwg too.. hahas..

Though the work there is tough, but i will definitely miss the ppl there.. they were all so gd to mi.. But luckily, managed to get most of their contacts =D .. I left work and went to play bball wif Ilham, clem, nazz, wz.. (Leo sae he was coming.. but he slpt till 9pm lor.. wtf.. feel lyk slapping him!!) Reached there at 7.15pm.. den taichi ppl coming at 8pm.. haiz.. machiam go there for Taichi =.=".. but anyway still managed to play some matches.. It was kinda unlucky for mi.. i gt smacked on my face and broke my specs and also injure my knee after being tripped during the bball match.. knn..they play till so loser lor.. dunno gt elbow hw many times..

After tt, we went lan.. den damn sian.. play 3 matches.. all tio owned.. haiz.. Realli bad day for mi.. Realli dunno hw to stay happy sia.. my face was lyk "black" all the way.. Den after tt went to giv ting someting.. though didnt see her.. but hope she feels my care and nt think tt i did all these for a purpose..

I miss you~

6 October 2007

Hahas.. after bball ytd, leo, nazz, clem and ilham come to ton at my hse.. We play dota all the way but lost all the way.. lols.. After at ard 3.30am we went for supper.. we went walking ard to look for 24hrs de coffee shop.. but things didnt turn as expected.. so in the end, we went to mac to eat.. wanna eat supper de.. but cos we reach mac at 4am.. den WTF, no more supper le.. become breakfast instead =.=" .. At mac, leo tio raped by ilham and mi.. muahahaha.. nxt time gt chance muz post the photo of hw leo gt raped.. hahas.. We did alot of gay stuffs sia =.=" realli make mi feel as if i become gay le.. hahas..

After supper, watch a movie "deep rising".. all sae wanna watch de lor.. but in end, all slpt except mi and leo.. wtf sia.. clem still sae this movie nt bad.. den instead, he the first to slp lor.. feel lyk smackin him sia.. den this nazz hor.. reali bwg sia.. the show juz started den he keep askin mi when will the monster come out =.=".. as if i noe lyk tt.. den reali wtf lor.. when the monster come out, i realise he already slp le >.<" .. den this leo leh.. reali bwg too.. the show haven end den went to play dota le.. =.=" .. In end, left mi onli lor.. After tt all went to my room and slp lyk pig.. leaving clem behind slping in the living room.. muahahaha.. who tell him to slp first =P ..

The nxt morning, this leo reali idiot lor.. i still slpin, den u noe wad? he keep using a pillow and smacking mi to wake mi up.. wtf lor.. After tt we went bank to make my atm card.. after we come back, we plan to go sentosa play.. but all tired lyk fk le.. so nv go.. den initally i wanna slp de.. den this leo dun allow.. den keep pestering mi to on air-con.. =.=" den in the end, he and clem went to slp after the aircon is on.. clem realli slper sia.. somemore still kio my bed to slp.. hai wo have to slp on the floor =.=" ..

Though after playing for the whole day den feel veri tired, but realli have a veri fun time playin wif them.. ( or shld i sae GAY time =P) ever since holiday started, i have nv feel abit of happiness.. it was till nw den i feel happy for once.. i realli hope and wish tt there is someone who cn share my happiness and my saddness.. i realli hate the feeling of loneliness.. realli hope tt she will be by my side always..

I miss you~

4th October 2007

2007-10-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

tml will be the last day of work.. will my life be brighter after tml??

Today workin as per normal, isolated as per normal, missing her as per normal.. everything seems so normal.. but dunno y.. there is juz this piercing pain in my heart.. i suddenly feel so heartbroken.. but the weird thing here is tt, she nv did anything to mi.. juz ignoring mi as per normal and i also nv contact her.. juz dunno y haf this weird feeling of loneliness.. realli feel veri sad nw.. hw i wish someone cn console mi nw.. hw i wish someone cn lend mi his/her listening ears.. haiz.. i am all alone waiting for u..

The onli thing i noe is tt i love u and i wan to care and concern bout u.. i wan u to be happy.. Does letting u go means happiness to u? if tt is the case, hw cn i force myself to let u go?

mins are like hours to mi..
U have ur frens to console u, to accompany thru the days u were sad..
But i have no one..
I am all alone..
Bleeding deep in my heart..
Saddness Rules my days..

3rd October 2007

2007-10-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

today is the 3rd last day of work.. den quite look forward to fri as it will be my last day of work le.. hahas..

Haiz.. today in work, was being isolated to a corner to do the same work as ytd.. den have to keep bend down to work again -.-".. super sian.. backache still thr den after today, it become worst.. on top of tt, my fingers de skin came off.. is even worst den ytd.. realli hope to end work asap though the ppl there were veri friendly.. cos the work there realli tough.. no gloves no nth =.=" .. imagine using bare hands den keep get poke by wires every day >.< .. haiz..

Today wasnt a veri ideal day for mi.. things were bad.. hw i hope i cn be busy for 24 hrs.. whenever i am free, she nv fails to take over my mind.. at this rate i am goin, i am gonna be crazy in no time.. dun realli haf anything else to add.. so i think i will juz end here.. bad day =(

*I may be nothing to u but u r my EVERYTHING*

i miss you~

2nd October 2007

2007-10-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today the 4th last day of work.. wee!! 3 more days to go and i am free.. whahahaha.. today during work super sian.. was being sorta transfer away from my frens to some other places.. den almost the whole day haf to stand to tie the cables =.=" .. den somemore, the cabinet so short.. haf to keep bend down until i having backache nw.. sian.. den also veri unlucky.. gt scratched by the edge of the cabinet many times on the same spot until it bleeds.. so suay >.< ..

But some thing funny did happen today.. One of my collegue (nicknamed didi) was kena scolded by the IC for not tying the things tight enuff.. den he bu shuang cos he think he ties veri tight le.. so u guess wad he did?? he took a super big tool which is used to tie bigger wires de to tie his tiny little wires.. lols.. SOMEMORE, he did tt infront of the IC tt scolded him sia.. den kena scolded again.. LOLS!! den look at his bu shuang and "ma lu" face realli make mi laugh like hell sia.. LOLS..

After work, mi n my collegues ( cong, xiang, didi , and 2 of their frens) went lan shop play dota =D.. den this didi sae wanna OWN mi!! LOLS.. i own him instead.. den keep suan him on the way home.. hahas.. realli veri funny when u look at his face when he gt suan.. LOLs..

Due to the loneliness during my work.. i haf a lot of time to think.. and i cant stop my mind from thinkin bout her.."Will she be missing mi?? does she still loves mi??" these qns keep appearing in my mind.. but i guess no one in this world haf the answer to these qns except her.. haiz.. juz keep thinkin bout the happy moments wif her.. i realli keep thinkin tt if she is still my gf nw, she will definitely be sms-ing mi and i wun be so bored le.. u may think i am exaggerating.. but she is realli someone tt i reali love veri much.. i hav nv feel a bit of happiness in mi since the day i broke wif her.. Seriously, she is my happiness.. i will nv be happy without her by my side.. Will "Happiness" be lost from my dictionary forever?? I realli need u to be by my side so i can care and shower u with all my love.. i really love you..

Hmm.. thats all for today ba.. Physically but not mentally tired nw.. *~wish~*(someday u will return to my side..)

missing you~

=(

1st Oct 2007

2007-10-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

First time write blog.. dunno wad to write.. hahas.. anyway.. for the past few months, alot of things happened to mi.. I lost my beloved gf.. haiz.. the main reason for the breakup is no longer impt anymore..

ytd, i accidently saw her blog.. it was written in her blog tt she already wanna break wif mi since june.. haiz.. it was till Aug when she said it out.. it was till nw den i noe tt actually she was feeling terrible and has no one to turn to.. haiz.. Y didnt she tell mi her problems?? it was nt as if i wun listen.. haiz.. i am realli heartbroken even till nw.. i feel so regretted.. wonder if i gt a chance to mend this.. it was the first time i cried so many times.. thru her blog n friendster, i sense tt ting has a change of heart le.. but i am nt sure.. i hope it is nt true.. i hav a feeling tt she likes this guy called weisheng as she keep mention him in her blog and sae he was cute and etc.. this weisheng was her dance partner.. someone hu hugged ting many times b4 during their couple dance.. on top of tt, ting's fren was teasing her n wei sheng in friendster and yet, ting somehw agrees to wad tey sae.. haiz.. though jessica told mi tt she thinks tt this weisheng is juz ting de eyecandy.. and also, no matter hw i ask ting, she juz told mi she nv haf a change of heart.. but i juz dun feel good..i noe i am no longer her bf.. i shldnt be jealous and haf no rite to be.. but the tot of it realli made mi heartbroken.. my heart totally went numb.. Till nw, i cn sense tt ting still cares for mi.. but i dunno whether she stills luv mi.. it is a 2yr 7mths relationship anyway.. ting is someone veri faithful.. so it realli makes mi feel contridicted.. i realli hope she will tell mi her feelings towards mi someday.. haiz..

I was told tt if i reali wanna start afresh wif ting, i haf to let go of the past and not mention it to her anymore so tt she wun feel irritated.. but if ting reali like tis weisheng, whr do i stand?? do i still stand a chance to be wif ting?? haiz.. i reali hope ting's heart is still wif mi..

Anyway, today is my 5th last day of work.. wee~ so happy.. after 5th oct, dun need work le.. but holiday also ending le.. haiz.. sian.. anyway, today in work, my collegue talk bout alot of horror encounter sia.. den tt damn IC( chaos) keep suddenly slam the table beside mi.. wtf sia.. reali scare the fuck out of mi >.<" .. and also becos of him, i keep kena scratch by the wires continously.. damn pain sia.. sooner or later will become zebra le -.- .. but today still quite nt bad.. chatting thru the whole working time.. den the time pass super fast.. hahas..

Hmm.. i think tt's all bout my 1st blog ba.. my mind nw is full of her.. haiz.. may god bless mi.. hope ting reali dun like tt weisheng.. den also hope tt she will return to my side one day.. hope i will noe her feelings more n hear she sae she luv mi again ( though it seems impossible..) ..

I really miss u~

Thats all for today =D